12-12-2010, 08:00 PM
In several dreams lately, including my most recent, I feel almost as if I have been put on a type of "lesson plan." The lesson: exploring various layers of consciousness. It has been made clearly apparent to me through my recent dream experiences that the layers that define our awareness, our personality and the various states of consciousness are much more subtle and numerous than I ever imagined.
I used to just perceive myself as "awake" or "asleep", but now I realize my awareness is more just like an enormous onion, with thousands of layers, and it is possible to experience all of these layers through a deeper thread of consciousness. I feel as if I am on a training program- slowly and gently I am brought through waking consciousness into the ethereal dream layers, then deeper into the unconscious mind, then deeper still into the collective consciousness, and the collective unconscious, and beyond that still many more deeper layers of subjective awareness.
Somehow I am allowed to keep a fragment of my conscious mind while at the same time experiencing the complete abandonment of all sense of individuality into something much more vast and acutely aware. I feel myself becoming larger and larger, until the entire universe is contained within my awareness. Then I step down and step down until I once again become familiar with the vibration specific to my body, then I begin going back through the layers that connect my consciousness to my body until I am once again in my current reality.
In my latest dream it seemed that a young man was doing this exercise with me, as if we were both students, practicing this expanding of consciousness. At some points I was aware of his unique vibration as well as my own, and also very aware that there was nothing separating the two. We were entirely one, though if I chose, I could distinguish between our separate personalities.
When I woke up, it suddenly occurred to me that everything that makes us unique and individual and what we are is a choice. That seems self explanatory, but it was like I was looking at this truth from a whole different angle. Personality isn't some arbitrary thing that is given or taken away. It is chosen. The onion is ours, and we may peel it at our leisure. There is no point of being forced to abandon the personality in order to progress. We simply choose to be what we are, no matter what that is- the choice is always within our grasp. This is comforting to me, as I have often feared losing all that I am as my consciousness expands outward.
Much of what I feel I have learned in these states goes beyond words. It is simply a knowing that has been planted within me. However, the most obvious truth is that we are all loved, and all will be well. I am very thankful for these experiences.
I used to just perceive myself as "awake" or "asleep", but now I realize my awareness is more just like an enormous onion, with thousands of layers, and it is possible to experience all of these layers through a deeper thread of consciousness. I feel as if I am on a training program- slowly and gently I am brought through waking consciousness into the ethereal dream layers, then deeper into the unconscious mind, then deeper still into the collective consciousness, and the collective unconscious, and beyond that still many more deeper layers of subjective awareness.
Somehow I am allowed to keep a fragment of my conscious mind while at the same time experiencing the complete abandonment of all sense of individuality into something much more vast and acutely aware. I feel myself becoming larger and larger, until the entire universe is contained within my awareness. Then I step down and step down until I once again become familiar with the vibration specific to my body, then I begin going back through the layers that connect my consciousness to my body until I am once again in my current reality.
In my latest dream it seemed that a young man was doing this exercise with me, as if we were both students, practicing this expanding of consciousness. At some points I was aware of his unique vibration as well as my own, and also very aware that there was nothing separating the two. We were entirely one, though if I chose, I could distinguish between our separate personalities.
When I woke up, it suddenly occurred to me that everything that makes us unique and individual and what we are is a choice. That seems self explanatory, but it was like I was looking at this truth from a whole different angle. Personality isn't some arbitrary thing that is given or taken away. It is chosen. The onion is ours, and we may peel it at our leisure. There is no point of being forced to abandon the personality in order to progress. We simply choose to be what we are, no matter what that is- the choice is always within our grasp. This is comforting to me, as I have often feared losing all that I am as my consciousness expands outward.
Much of what I feel I have learned in these states goes beyond words. It is simply a knowing that has been planted within me. However, the most obvious truth is that we are all loved, and all will be well. I am very thankful for these experiences.
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