12-09-2017, 06:44 PM
Well, I know one thing.
When the mask comes off, hopefully I'll be able to make everyone understand why I flipped out yesterday the way I did. I'm too anxious to even go and look at what people said in return.
I know I was wrong and overreacting but there is still a lot that I perceived being done even if its just a little, I shared one of the HARDEST things there is for me to share and I basically god dismissed as having a sexist outlook and basically being the problem.
That's not how my life experience paints things for me. I'm the one who's being abused.
I try, SOOOOOO hard... I try to be so aware of all of these little things, the voice in the back of my head saying that my past shows me women will hurt me and abuse me and manipulate me. I say maybe, but I KNOW they're souls, that I can't judge everyone for a few bad things some people did to me. I tell myself I'll be better than that. I won't judge people for the color of their skin, their culture, their sex, but by my interactions with them.
I admit I owe apologies but some are owed to me too. If a girl came on here and shared their experiences of being used by men and how that's shaped them, only for a man to come in and say she fetishized parts of him and has a screwed up outlook for having partook in porn of men, would people not feel that that's dismissive and disrespectful?? Would that nonchalant portrayal of her very deep experiences as invalid not be upsetting to a very deep point?
I feel like because I'm a guy, I don't matter as much. That hurts the way it must feel to be oppressed. So I am compounded with hurt that I not only am disregarded, but suppressed, then called the suppressor.
I just want to not feel so...Much like garbage for being a man... I don't want to feel like my feelings, my experiences, can just be thrown away because I have a Y chromosome...
I'm sorry for ranting. I can't stop thinking about it, about how women must feel oppressed, it's so much more vivid now. I see why everyone got mad at E_S but, why isn't anyone mad for me? Does how I'm oppressed not matter?? Why is this happening? What's going on??
I hope people will understand one day that we're all equal and dealing with very almost exactly the same catalysts. Female is oppressed, male is oppressed. Everyone hates each other now for it...
This society is lame like this, but I'm still going to try to make amends to everyone, I just wish people could see how men are suffering in this society too.
I try to love, but moments like that make it especially hard. I intend to PM Jade An Apology, but for now, I need to make sense of why it's okay to dismiss me. I just don't understand.
When the mask comes off, hopefully I'll be able to make everyone understand why I flipped out yesterday the way I did. I'm too anxious to even go and look at what people said in return.
I know I was wrong and overreacting but there is still a lot that I perceived being done even if its just a little, I shared one of the HARDEST things there is for me to share and I basically god dismissed as having a sexist outlook and basically being the problem.
That's not how my life experience paints things for me. I'm the one who's being abused.
I try, SOOOOOO hard... I try to be so aware of all of these little things, the voice in the back of my head saying that my past shows me women will hurt me and abuse me and manipulate me. I say maybe, but I KNOW they're souls, that I can't judge everyone for a few bad things some people did to me. I tell myself I'll be better than that. I won't judge people for the color of their skin, their culture, their sex, but by my interactions with them.
I admit I owe apologies but some are owed to me too. If a girl came on here and shared their experiences of being used by men and how that's shaped them, only for a man to come in and say she fetishized parts of him and has a screwed up outlook for having partook in porn of men, would people not feel that that's dismissive and disrespectful?? Would that nonchalant portrayal of her very deep experiences as invalid not be upsetting to a very deep point?
I feel like because I'm a guy, I don't matter as much. That hurts the way it must feel to be oppressed. So I am compounded with hurt that I not only am disregarded, but suppressed, then called the suppressor.
I just want to not feel so...Much like garbage for being a man... I don't want to feel like my feelings, my experiences, can just be thrown away because I have a Y chromosome...
I'm sorry for ranting. I can't stop thinking about it, about how women must feel oppressed, it's so much more vivid now. I see why everyone got mad at E_S but, why isn't anyone mad for me? Does how I'm oppressed not matter?? Why is this happening? What's going on??
I hope people will understand one day that we're all equal and dealing with very almost exactly the same catalysts. Female is oppressed, male is oppressed. Everyone hates each other now for it...
This society is lame like this, but I'm still going to try to make amends to everyone, I just wish people could see how men are suffering in this society too.
I try to love, but moments like that make it especially hard. I intend to PM Jade An Apology, but for now, I need to make sense of why it's okay to dismiss me. I just don't understand.