11-13-2017, 08:49 PM
Haha, I'll make a post, who knows, maybe someone will look right through my issues and see someone worthwhile.
-clears throat-
I have been out of a relationship for about... 5 years now to heal. Its been a rollercoaster of piecing together not only my heart but my mind. I do have a son but he's not in my life sadly. It has taken 5 years to come to terms with that, and somedays I still am.
I'm still trying to come to terms with how it all turned out, and am very, admittedly, terrified of dating, because I've been used a lot for my attention, thoughtfulness, and money, and have had very little reciprocation from past partners. It has made me, to put it bluntly, cautious and lacking trust in any women ever actually caring about me romantically.
Yet, I still struggle to not hold that against anyone, as I know guys, and thus myself, can be just as bad, so I try not to view women as mistrustful or manipulative even if I have everyone whispering in my ear how 'crazy' women are, I don't believe that. I simply think society makes us unaware of how unimportant our feelings are to each other
I'm a great listener, just a bit dim when it comes to many societal things (what's up with healthcare? You'd think access to it would be easier...), and I'm a great talker about the magic of life and God, and not so much on anything else except nerdy stuff like manga/anime, star trek, and video games. Oh, and life.
I like to explore subjects when I talk, I'm very bad at small talk, and don't like to lead conversations starting out since I quickly end up having either nothing interesting to say, or have weird opinions that get to weird topics like if the sky to China is rightsideup to a china man, is it upsidedown to me?
Does that mean the sky above my head is upside down to people on the other side of the world?
Or pyramids, what's up with them? What do they mean? How was such old societies able to construct such great structures?
Or, if aliens exist, I wonder what a conversation with one would be like?
What if we could talk to animals? What would they say?
And stuff like that.
I'm 25, but feel like I'm 12 bordering 90.
I love math, science, (love/hate) technology, and philosophy, and hate politics, manipulative people, and pathological liars.
I do write and have dreams of getting better at programming and eventually making my own living building apps and games for mobile devices, as well as one day publishing a book or a dozen books.
I look forward to hearing from no one
Especially since I often think unless things change in society I'll just be single unto my grave haha~
To bad this thread was less than successful. The new agers and spiritualists could really use a dedicated dating service catered to them. Like Christianmingle only we'll call it Wandering Lovers .... or something
-clears throat-
I have been out of a relationship for about... 5 years now to heal. Its been a rollercoaster of piecing together not only my heart but my mind. I do have a son but he's not in my life sadly. It has taken 5 years to come to terms with that, and somedays I still am.
I'm still trying to come to terms with how it all turned out, and am very, admittedly, terrified of dating, because I've been used a lot for my attention, thoughtfulness, and money, and have had very little reciprocation from past partners. It has made me, to put it bluntly, cautious and lacking trust in any women ever actually caring about me romantically.
Yet, I still struggle to not hold that against anyone, as I know guys, and thus myself, can be just as bad, so I try not to view women as mistrustful or manipulative even if I have everyone whispering in my ear how 'crazy' women are, I don't believe that. I simply think society makes us unaware of how unimportant our feelings are to each other
I'm a great listener, just a bit dim when it comes to many societal things (what's up with healthcare? You'd think access to it would be easier...), and I'm a great talker about the magic of life and God, and not so much on anything else except nerdy stuff like manga/anime, star trek, and video games. Oh, and life.
I like to explore subjects when I talk, I'm very bad at small talk, and don't like to lead conversations starting out since I quickly end up having either nothing interesting to say, or have weird opinions that get to weird topics like if the sky to China is rightsideup to a china man, is it upsidedown to me?
Does that mean the sky above my head is upside down to people on the other side of the world?
Or pyramids, what's up with them? What do they mean? How was such old societies able to construct such great structures?
Or, if aliens exist, I wonder what a conversation with one would be like?
What if we could talk to animals? What would they say?
And stuff like that.
I'm 25, but feel like I'm 12 bordering 90.
I love math, science, (love/hate) technology, and philosophy, and hate politics, manipulative people, and pathological liars.
I do write and have dreams of getting better at programming and eventually making my own living building apps and games for mobile devices, as well as one day publishing a book or a dozen books.
I look forward to hearing from no one
Especially since I often think unless things change in society I'll just be single unto my grave haha~
To bad this thread was less than successful. The new agers and spiritualists could really use a dedicated dating service catered to them. Like Christianmingle only we'll call it Wandering Lovers .... or something