10-31-2017, 09:27 AM
-coughs- This might be...An embarrassing post to share...
Well then, that was an interesting read. You know, normally I'd discard some of what has been said here and walk away with the interesting bits, but I've been reading a book I recently found through a declassified CIA Document's reference, the book is called in it's current edition The Kundalini Experience, but was originally called Kundalini: Psychosis or Transcendence, and it's been interesting in what few pages I've managed to get through so far.
You appear to be having a full blown kundalini experience, along with all the traits of insanity that sometimes follow, and yet you appear mostly coherent and otherwise sane considering your overall post.
I think it's interesting to note that sexual activity seems to stimulate the kundalini's intensity, but I don't think it plays a huge role in how active the kundalini itself is. The sex is like a fuel more than a catalyst towards growth in my experience.
Speaking of my experiences, I will agree that weed can empower and help the kundalini emerge, but it's not intended to prolong the kundalini experience or help control it. It's sort of the natural anesthetic that lets you get through the physical and mental changes of the kundalini more easily, this in my experience led to what felt like an accelerated activation. I can't say if the weed was the cause or if my sensitivity was, or if overall it was a mixture, but I don't wish to link weed to acceleration of the kundalini, so much as providing a sense of ease with the new found conscious states and mental and physiological occurrences that come with kundalini awakening.
It's also somewhat alerting to me how poorly this 'psychosis' was received by the police. Solitary Confinement should be abolished, as well as isolation wards. Isolation is the most extreme kind of 'peaceful' punishment you can inflict upon a person because the resounding wounds are mostly mental/emotional. To be stuck alone in a kundalini awakening in an isolation cell must be extremely traumatic, and has probably left a sour taste in your memories.
At least you seemed to be in such a state that you handled it well enough.
Believe it or not you are not the first one to do stuff with feces in an isolation room to try and garnish some attention, and not the first one denied medical care in one of those rooms...
Anyways, you've come through from it all well enough, so that's good.
I will admit that ever since I had my own kundalini awakening experience, what some here call initiation, I've found my own sexuality to be much more...Expansive than I was at first comfortable with admitting. It seems the same has occurred with you judging by your commentary of sexual experiences. For me there was a very intense array of catalyst that led me to explore homosexuality and my own body, an in the long run left me somewhat baffled as to the point of the overall experience except to help me get in touch with my own feminine being, and even then it still to this day feels taboo, disturbing, and somewhat gross considering I'm not really into anal stuff beyond watching porn of it, mostly because I know that anal is physically not the safest activity to participate.
On top of that with my own digestive issues and other fun catalyst like hemorrhoids, those experiences were short lived, but I admit coming out of that phase of sexual self exploration with the sensation of 'the fog has lifted' from the world, and it did seem like there was a greater appreciation for the other side of reality, the feminine to my masculine, where all the colors and potential and vibrations and energy was much more vibrant and 'alive' whereas a purely masculine view saw such things through a very blurry dulling lens, the colors were defined and identified, the potential manifested into small facets of it's fullness, the vibrations were weak, and the energy was more concrete.
It's interesting, and I thank you for sharing an otherwise very embarrassing story as it gives me a chance to share my own embarrassing experiences with kundalini awakening.
Such as discovering I had a great problem with men and women, and have tried my best to take from both pools the best traits I desire to be, and move with that intent, as well as discovering an inherent distaste for my own body leading me to be more desirous of a female form, and further that discovery led to the realization of that 'desire' being present for a much longer time than I originally thought, that has led me overall to believe I've a more feminine personality than masculine... Which might explain why so many people have picked on me and made fun of me in school, or thought I was gay or something like that.
Despite that, and to the nudges and suggestions from some of my close friends who know these things about me, I still do not identify as gender fluid or transgender, but do identify in part with those concepts, but overall just call myself bisexual and hide that fact I don't get aroused by people anymore because everyone for all of their beauty and worthiness and personality, have ugliness, are willing to throw themselves away and their personalities away.
It's like we're all slaves to ourselves, so, during a good majority of exploration during my kundalini awakening, there is some documentation on this very forum of some of the darker moments I experienced as well as the insanity that came with it, the great anger, frustration, disbelief, and confusion at the ugliness, monstrosity, apathy, and selfishness of humanity. It was like a part of me was warped into a monster, an I had to hold it back an often times the most I could manage to do that was yell, anything less seemed impossible, the emotional turmoil from those feelings felt like it'd rip me apart had I not ejected them all with fierce furious yelling.
This all seems to be a natural part of kundalini, in my case during it's peak I was actively exploring the concepts of mixing darkness and light to discover the divinity they shared, an in the process of researching such things as rape, murder, and torture, found it is accurate that your intentions move you through layers of available observational perspectives, in my case I went from the heavenly worthiness of oneness in all things to the great deep dark separations and torments of the creator by its self. The experience was distressing to say the least, as I eventually got to a point where it felt like I was literally in Hell, like I was just in some kind of mind snare, an entrapment of an illusion keeping me caged to a reality of Earth, the darkness of Earth.
But it passes, it always does and always will. Eventually, you reflect on everything and realize the changes are still occurring, and while I honestly am a very fearful person of pain, I find that is not a valid excuse to deny the explorative nature I've been trying to suppress for the sake of not discovering more darkness in the light.
Overall, the sexual experiences of kundalini awakening have actually been a mixed basket. With the start being in exploration of homosexuality, and finding it not to my liking, but I did find a fondness for the energy of it when it's in a more loving form over lustful, and think I could have a relationship with another guy as long as it was fueled by affection rather than sexual yearning.
But after that, and the few relationships I've had with women after that phase, I find that kundalini sort of turns you into a...Saturated Rod of Energy, and I don't mean that in a pun about a penis, I mean that like your touch can be electrifying, and your kisses can send rushes through people, and your sexual affection can melt another. Although to be fair my astrology chart also points out I have attached to this incarnation 'great sexual activity', so perhaps it isn't the kundalini, but I can't say, I don't get to be with people often enough to be able to tell lol.
I just think it's worth noting that kundalini is a powerful energy and sexual activity imbued with it will be somewhat mind blowing in a literal sense, like orgasms will ripple and echo through you, you can with pleasure put yourself into altered states of mind, though arguably this is possible without a kundalini awakening hah, and overall the sexual activity made available with an awakened kundalini is the kind most people fantasize about.
But, despite all of that, I can't say I've ever heard anything about anal kundalini, although it is arguable that every orifice is of a feminine nature with the concept of 'awaiting the male principle' considered, and might explain why in the collective mind homosexual men are considered feminine if they're the bottom, but not if they're the top sometimes.
So, it could be conceivable that anal, and even oral, can be affected activities by kundalini for the means of sexual energy transfers an conscious exploration and fueling.
Not to be all inappropriate here, but the idea that fellatio or cunnilingus could lead to a proper sexual energy transfer is actually kind of erotic in and of itself as it'd mean the Creator wasn't content at just finding the 'original designed' sexual activity satisfying enough, that vaginal sex wasn't where it's exploration stopped. Even in the animal kingdom you find instances of anal sex and also same sex anal sex, so us humans being animals, makes sense we'd have similar occurrences of experiences, but underneath it all means that the creator planned it out to occur naturally. Which goes against the societal norm that says homosexuality, as well as anal and oral sex are unnatural.
Which in my mind justifies it as not something to be taboo or gross, but simply...Private.
It is interesting to note how some people are aroused during oral sex when giving it, or how the anus considering it's sensitivity to stimulus can become aroused and grow wet and engorged somewhat like a vagina, which means the anus does have some sexual related functions in potential, as does using the mouth.
...-clears throat-...This would probably be a good thread to explore the overall inferences and implications of sexual activity in relation to energetic transfers and kundalini occurrences. Or basically to discuss the what, why, and how of sexual activity in relation to metaphysics and kundalini.
Sorry if my post seems a bit unfocused, I'm still pretty sleepy.
Well then, that was an interesting read. You know, normally I'd discard some of what has been said here and walk away with the interesting bits, but I've been reading a book I recently found through a declassified CIA Document's reference, the book is called in it's current edition The Kundalini Experience, but was originally called Kundalini: Psychosis or Transcendence, and it's been interesting in what few pages I've managed to get through so far.
You appear to be having a full blown kundalini experience, along with all the traits of insanity that sometimes follow, and yet you appear mostly coherent and otherwise sane considering your overall post.
I think it's interesting to note that sexual activity seems to stimulate the kundalini's intensity, but I don't think it plays a huge role in how active the kundalini itself is. The sex is like a fuel more than a catalyst towards growth in my experience.
Speaking of my experiences, I will agree that weed can empower and help the kundalini emerge, but it's not intended to prolong the kundalini experience or help control it. It's sort of the natural anesthetic that lets you get through the physical and mental changes of the kundalini more easily, this in my experience led to what felt like an accelerated activation. I can't say if the weed was the cause or if my sensitivity was, or if overall it was a mixture, but I don't wish to link weed to acceleration of the kundalini, so much as providing a sense of ease with the new found conscious states and mental and physiological occurrences that come with kundalini awakening.
It's also somewhat alerting to me how poorly this 'psychosis' was received by the police. Solitary Confinement should be abolished, as well as isolation wards. Isolation is the most extreme kind of 'peaceful' punishment you can inflict upon a person because the resounding wounds are mostly mental/emotional. To be stuck alone in a kundalini awakening in an isolation cell must be extremely traumatic, and has probably left a sour taste in your memories.
At least you seemed to be in such a state that you handled it well enough.
Believe it or not you are not the first one to do stuff with feces in an isolation room to try and garnish some attention, and not the first one denied medical care in one of those rooms...
Anyways, you've come through from it all well enough, so that's good.
I will admit that ever since I had my own kundalini awakening experience, what some here call initiation, I've found my own sexuality to be much more...Expansive than I was at first comfortable with admitting. It seems the same has occurred with you judging by your commentary of sexual experiences. For me there was a very intense array of catalyst that led me to explore homosexuality and my own body, an in the long run left me somewhat baffled as to the point of the overall experience except to help me get in touch with my own feminine being, and even then it still to this day feels taboo, disturbing, and somewhat gross considering I'm not really into anal stuff beyond watching porn of it, mostly because I know that anal is physically not the safest activity to participate.
On top of that with my own digestive issues and other fun catalyst like hemorrhoids, those experiences were short lived, but I admit coming out of that phase of sexual self exploration with the sensation of 'the fog has lifted' from the world, and it did seem like there was a greater appreciation for the other side of reality, the feminine to my masculine, where all the colors and potential and vibrations and energy was much more vibrant and 'alive' whereas a purely masculine view saw such things through a very blurry dulling lens, the colors were defined and identified, the potential manifested into small facets of it's fullness, the vibrations were weak, and the energy was more concrete.
It's interesting, and I thank you for sharing an otherwise very embarrassing story as it gives me a chance to share my own embarrassing experiences with kundalini awakening.
Such as discovering I had a great problem with men and women, and have tried my best to take from both pools the best traits I desire to be, and move with that intent, as well as discovering an inherent distaste for my own body leading me to be more desirous of a female form, and further that discovery led to the realization of that 'desire' being present for a much longer time than I originally thought, that has led me overall to believe I've a more feminine personality than masculine... Which might explain why so many people have picked on me and made fun of me in school, or thought I was gay or something like that.
Despite that, and to the nudges and suggestions from some of my close friends who know these things about me, I still do not identify as gender fluid or transgender, but do identify in part with those concepts, but overall just call myself bisexual and hide that fact I don't get aroused by people anymore because everyone for all of their beauty and worthiness and personality, have ugliness, are willing to throw themselves away and their personalities away.
It's like we're all slaves to ourselves, so, during a good majority of exploration during my kundalini awakening, there is some documentation on this very forum of some of the darker moments I experienced as well as the insanity that came with it, the great anger, frustration, disbelief, and confusion at the ugliness, monstrosity, apathy, and selfishness of humanity. It was like a part of me was warped into a monster, an I had to hold it back an often times the most I could manage to do that was yell, anything less seemed impossible, the emotional turmoil from those feelings felt like it'd rip me apart had I not ejected them all with fierce furious yelling.
This all seems to be a natural part of kundalini, in my case during it's peak I was actively exploring the concepts of mixing darkness and light to discover the divinity they shared, an in the process of researching such things as rape, murder, and torture, found it is accurate that your intentions move you through layers of available observational perspectives, in my case I went from the heavenly worthiness of oneness in all things to the great deep dark separations and torments of the creator by its self. The experience was distressing to say the least, as I eventually got to a point where it felt like I was literally in Hell, like I was just in some kind of mind snare, an entrapment of an illusion keeping me caged to a reality of Earth, the darkness of Earth.
But it passes, it always does and always will. Eventually, you reflect on everything and realize the changes are still occurring, and while I honestly am a very fearful person of pain, I find that is not a valid excuse to deny the explorative nature I've been trying to suppress for the sake of not discovering more darkness in the light.
Overall, the sexual experiences of kundalini awakening have actually been a mixed basket. With the start being in exploration of homosexuality, and finding it not to my liking, but I did find a fondness for the energy of it when it's in a more loving form over lustful, and think I could have a relationship with another guy as long as it was fueled by affection rather than sexual yearning.
But after that, and the few relationships I've had with women after that phase, I find that kundalini sort of turns you into a...Saturated Rod of Energy, and I don't mean that in a pun about a penis, I mean that like your touch can be electrifying, and your kisses can send rushes through people, and your sexual affection can melt another. Although to be fair my astrology chart also points out I have attached to this incarnation 'great sexual activity', so perhaps it isn't the kundalini, but I can't say, I don't get to be with people often enough to be able to tell lol.
I just think it's worth noting that kundalini is a powerful energy and sexual activity imbued with it will be somewhat mind blowing in a literal sense, like orgasms will ripple and echo through you, you can with pleasure put yourself into altered states of mind, though arguably this is possible without a kundalini awakening hah, and overall the sexual activity made available with an awakened kundalini is the kind most people fantasize about.
But, despite all of that, I can't say I've ever heard anything about anal kundalini, although it is arguable that every orifice is of a feminine nature with the concept of 'awaiting the male principle' considered, and might explain why in the collective mind homosexual men are considered feminine if they're the bottom, but not if they're the top sometimes.
So, it could be conceivable that anal, and even oral, can be affected activities by kundalini for the means of sexual energy transfers an conscious exploration and fueling.
Not to be all inappropriate here, but the idea that fellatio or cunnilingus could lead to a proper sexual energy transfer is actually kind of erotic in and of itself as it'd mean the Creator wasn't content at just finding the 'original designed' sexual activity satisfying enough, that vaginal sex wasn't where it's exploration stopped. Even in the animal kingdom you find instances of anal sex and also same sex anal sex, so us humans being animals, makes sense we'd have similar occurrences of experiences, but underneath it all means that the creator planned it out to occur naturally. Which goes against the societal norm that says homosexuality, as well as anal and oral sex are unnatural.
Which in my mind justifies it as not something to be taboo or gross, but simply...Private.
It is interesting to note how some people are aroused during oral sex when giving it, or how the anus considering it's sensitivity to stimulus can become aroused and grow wet and engorged somewhat like a vagina, which means the anus does have some sexual related functions in potential, as does using the mouth.
...-clears throat-...This would probably be a good thread to explore the overall inferences and implications of sexual activity in relation to energetic transfers and kundalini occurrences. Or basically to discuss the what, why, and how of sexual activity in relation to metaphysics and kundalini.
Sorry if my post seems a bit unfocused, I'm still pretty sleepy.
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