08-21-2017, 04:57 AM
(08-21-2017, 04:09 AM)JayCee Wrote: Wow you guys do write a lot!
No problem, Fuse
I think you asked about opinion on incest in general somewhere, Ches....
if it is consentual and both are adults, I see no problem with that. Only they should absolutely use birthcontrol ....
aristocracy has been inbreeding for centuries and look at the results, haha.
And I wanted to add, I don't think what you experienced has to do with too early green ray activation, it is something else. I need to think more about it in order to be able to put it into words.
Everything about those visions and downloads you mention reminds me a lot of my own experience. I cannot say there were negative ones though, it baffles me that you had those of negative entities and such.
It does not ring true with the otherwise unconditional love and general high.
Or did the negative visions come later, after those love feelings had gone? sorry, maybe I misunderstood.
I don't know what it was either.. (that's why I'm here asking the questions and sharing anything that I can think of that might help me figure it out).
I've been thinking lately I should consider the timeline of events leading up to the catalyst that brought me down again lol.
But in a nutshell and there were plenty of other experiences around these few years, but the big ones that I remember briefly in this moment are:
1.) Death of self... I was sick & dying .. bedridden and in despair. I had a surrender or death and when I "came to".. I was a different being with a different attitude and I healed myself over the coming months from death to vibrant health and happiness. It put me on the path of "wtf" basically lol. The "WTF" was that. Who am I.. what are really capable of. Am I walk-in? Did I actually die and go into a parallel reality? Everything was different but the same. I was different. It was like another part of my soul said "just go.. I'll take-over from here". So many concepts and rabbit holes I've gone down from that experience lol, but.. it put me on the absolute path of "truth-seeker".
2.) Oneness "hugged-by-life" experience. I was sitting in the backyard on the computer, when suddenly I was overcome with unconditional love and oneness with all that is.. I was part of everything and there was so much love - it filled every cell in my body. I wasn't doing anything to call it in, I wasn't even thinking about anything like this. I was probably on Facebook when it happened - lol. But it changed my perspective on everything... cos I had actually felt it. I had it on and off over the coming weeks, and it was magical. I really "knew" then that it's "not just us playing around here".. I mean.. that now I "knew" there was so much more to this universe/reality that I didnt understand and that I'm yet to tap into, and that you can experience heaven on earth - even without any other people around.
3.) Download of Knowledge from source.. I had an experience where I was shown the answers to everything and then it all dissipated when I tried to share it. That also put me down some rabbit holes as I was trying to figure out "how to get it back, how to tap back in, what it was.. is it a one-time deal, etc etc.. " the closest I could find at that time and since, was either I temporarily tapped into the equivalent of what people refer to as the akashic records, or had an DMT experience (natural from my own body).. because when I read about people's Ayawashka experiences and DMT experiences, it was kind of "oh folks, we're getting close! these people have the closest-experiences to what I experienced that night.
4.) I was then on a more urgent path to finding the truth. The Syncronicities started happening... accidental and intentional manifestations, connections and answers. Life started to get really interesting and amazing. I was writing a book on natural healing when about 27 chapters in, I realized that I wasn't healed by anything that I just spent months writing. And then I knew I needed to find out more about what it was that healed me, and I was absorbing as much information that I could find that was related. I also started up groups to be able to talk about things freely that I was researching and excited when others were sharing things they were researching "in the private eye rather than the public eye" and to support them and my own interest, I was also researching the things they were sharing. Some were like into light-body stuff and others were into conspiracy stuff, and so lots of new information was coming at me and there wasn't enough time in the day so I was a bit "overkill" with absorbing everything.
5.) In my eagerness to advance, and after seeing how these smaller things were being manifested and then I had a taste for wanting to know "all the truth".. I came to the realization that the reason I couldn't manifest "bigger" things was because this reality works on your belief/imagination/trust/faith/will/intention. That all I need do to "get the truth" was to step into a reality where that was my truth.. to "play with the universe" meant to "play with my mind".. to expand myself.. I need to expand the possibilities of my mind.. to lift the lid on what was possible and ... then the truth would be revealed. It seems crazy to think that this screwed up my reality because honestly even though I was a semi-believer, I didn't expect it to work, I thought either nothing would happen or that I would learn something more. I was willing to do the experiment on myself without much prior-thinking about any consequences because I was like a little kid wanting to practice magic - to wave my "imaginery wand" and see what would happen.
So I basically "willed" myself to lift the lid on what's possible. I can't even put my mind even close to where it was when I was in that state.. it's like I have an in-built "shut-down" system now that won't let me access it for my own protection lol. But I foolishly did something to lift my lid, to surrender to truth, and requested truth and begged/yearned for it, willed it.. just pretty much demanded and believed it, but not "believed I would be harmed by it".. I just wanted to see what would happen. The next day, I was "in" this new realm. Even if it was just in my mind.. I was experiencing a particular reality and I don't think anyone else was, but from my perspective.. everyone else also had been upgraded to this new realm, it's like I was experiencing everyone's "next, highest version" and my own. I felt the universal connection with all things again and I trusted that life was leading me to truth.
6.) I was romantically connected to a guy, but that wasn't going so well. We were both conscious that we were evolving together in a way - helping one another with the "things that came up" and it was pretty awesome but then we sort of, went "off" each other for a little bit. It was in this "off" period, that the co-worker and I got together. Suddenly having a magnetic attraction to each other out of the blue. After getting to know him better, I realized that he was in a great deal of trauma/stress, and in my new "state", I delusionally thought that I was here to help him.. and that's when all this other stuff happened. The dreams and visions only started happening after I started getting the "fears" - the triggers that he was bringing up.. the rapes, incest, and the mean-ness/coldness he was displaying towards other people that I couldn't resonate with at the time because of the "high" that I was in. I didn't know that "I" could be triggered or experiencing a catalyst at that time, because I didn't know about catalysts.. I just trusted the universe, I trusted that everything was put in my path for a reason, and trusted life.... I thought only "good" could happen to me.. lol .. cos I thought I was creating this all, my mind went cross-eyed, from perhaps the experiment coupled with all this over-research, and then this catalyst that I didn't know was a catalyst cos I was arrogant/ignorant or didn't know any better, because I was looking at everything from a different space.
That's why I think I might of inadvertently 'activated' something earlier than it was intended.. like the green-ray or the indigo-ray or something, even just for a short period of time.. and I experienced some kind of kundalini-psychosis or PTSD kind of syndrome when all this other stuff opened up to me, and because at the time, I'm doing an experiment on "trusting the universe" .. lol.. I wasn't able to see all the warning signs and I most definitely was not grounded enough to be balanced.. I was off in lala-land. Not "love-land" in the traditional romantic sense but.. like... experiencing a different reality to everyone else and this guy was in the middle of it.. probably the catalyst of the complete opposite to "force" myself into grounding myself.. like yin/yang.. creation will always balance itself.. order out of chaos, etc.
From it though, I got to see how many "mainstream" things I hadn't balanced in myself. Such as sacrificing myself to make others happy, like seeking validation/acceptance from others, I saw a lot of places where I was affected by childhood traumas and things like that, but this awareness came after all this, as I forced myself to go back in time pre-all these awesome life events.. to suppressed memories and traumas because I never wanted this to happen again. The ego didn't like it's reputation being ruined from what it thought was a harmless even fun experiment that wasn't really even expected to do anything except that it completely changed my life.
For me, I was stupid to do this experiment whilst still having a day-job and not exactly balanced etc, but we learn in hindsight sometimes.. or all the time. lol. But some things look more obvious "after it is done" than when you're "in it" and I was so excited about experimenting and seeing what would happen. I think this guy just got caught in the middle of my crazy but the most common question I have asked myself over the past 3 years trying to understand and make sense of it, was.. "how did I not follow my intuition.. how did common-sense "not" kick in.. etc.. like.. my most common question was based around the confusion of wondering how trusting life .. turned out the opposite of what I expected hehe. Honestly it's embarrassing and hard to explain because I've had to look at it from so many different multi-dimensional angles because it wasn't a normal situation at all, but there was mainstream stuff all intertwined in it.. because I guess that's the reality we are here to experience and I wasn't meant to or ready for whatever that "other reality" was - my mind wasn't ready and I didn't know about energy centres, etc.
Did you get positive visions with your experience? None of my visions were positive in nature.