If you activate your green-ray too early, how do you repair the damage?

[ches]

God! What a mess! I am EXTREMELY sympathetic about terrible working conditions. You have absolutely GOT to get yourself out of that mess. Find a new job immediately. Cut the negative creeps out of your life completely. Keep us apprised of the process here, or however, and we'll support your efforts energetically. But the mandatory part of healing this sort of problem is getting your vibration high and being able to keep it up there to create a brightly lit soul where they just can't hang. Having to go into a workplace that is an emotional hellhole pretty much guarantees that that's impossible. I can assure you that this is true from past and painful (and not dissimilar) experience, lol.

Yeah I've been getting that message for years but my "wanting to prove that I can get past this, even deep in the situation" has kept me there, and also not understanding it has kept me there. It's like I wanted to find some kind of completion to the incompletion, to rectify it, to fix it, to repair it, hehe. And I also thought that if I could do that there, that I would have so many more answers for others who are going though similar traumas - where I can be of service to them. That maybe if I could "relight-my-light" even in this darkness, that those who are in situations where they cant' seem to find a way out, that I would have answers for them. But yep.. I'm finally getting the message that that place is actually keeping me in a lower-density and I do need to get out. Sad about that, but the job sucks anyway. I do think I might have to stay there for a couple more months while I transition to a new area to live, but when something is "in it's last days", it should be easier to navigate because you know that it's "not long now... "

This world is, it would seem, owned and operated by people who believe themselves to be evil wizards, and act accordingly. There are lots of places where the dark holds sway to a sufficient degree that it can snuff out a Light. It's their free will to reject the lantern you shone, after all. Kick the dust of the place off your sandals and move on to find those who both need and want your Light. I think you should definitely feel free to "hope only of the other-selves’ joy, peace, and comfort" from a distance, from a place where you are not subjected to their nastiness and vibration-lowering negativity. Nothing about loving them requires you to let them victimize you.

Yep, you're right.

I'm especially sorry about the mess with the guy's little sister. I couldn't imagine what I would have done. I can say that I don't feel like you handled the situation incorrectly. You didn't know sufficient details to know for sure whether there even was a crime, or if it's a crime of consensual incest or something worse than that. There's nothing you could do to find out that wouldn't result in his parents being questioned about it, probably in really horrifying ways. Maybe it would have been worth the destruction to himself and his family? Hard to know, but it seems to me very unlikely that anything other than destruction would have resulted, whether what he was saying was true or not.

Yeah I kept wondering if life put me there for that, but then... I didn't do it, and so.. life might of had other plans. I don't know. There was never clarity about anything there, there was just more confusion built on more confusion, especially because I was not "normal" at the time. If I ever "open the lid on the universe again"... I'll go bush and be away from everyone for a while until I can adjust

I was curious as to what "Law of One" followers think about incest and other things that in mainstream seems so "wrong". I'm still curious but probably only from my own point of gaining validation for my potential choices.

It's very weird how this incest thing keeps coming in my life. When I lived in a girl's home, I lived with a lot of girls who had been the "sex-slave" for the entire-family of brothers and fathers and uncles and grandparents and so on. Then meeting him, re-brought to surface all the undealt-with-stuff from back in those days. And now with the relative of mine. I wonder if this is a catalyst that I haven't quite understood yet. I accept and then it's "brought up" again. So maybe it's something that I need to "understand" from a spiritual and physical perspective in more depth. Maybe it will be ongoing and answers will come. It's weird that it's so unexpected and yet shows up every decade or so.. :/ I wonder how common it really is, maybe way more common and just "not talked about".. hushed-hushed because of the guilt/shame surrounding it.

What is it about we of the Light who stand on the threshold of this evolution that attracts crazy negatives to us?

Lol I don't know. I considered myself a "crazy-positive" at that time. And now I think I'm a "negative, trying to turn positive". Although it depends on the moment

I was married at one point (very briefly) to a young woman I thought I knew, who proceeded to disclose across a series of months that everything I knew about her was a lie. It went to extremes like numbers of prior sexual partners, a previously unmentioned former career as a stripper, and scary past drug dealing activities that could necessitate a sudden "hitting of the road," if the wrong people showed up. Yeah, I hadn't signed up for that. One of the craziest disclosures, though, was an incestuous relationship with a stepbrother. That was just a stepbrother, but I still got the sort of queasy "eww, now what the f&$@ do I do" feeling that comes when you find out about something like that. I didn't know how to handle it either. I wish her the best, and bear her no ill will whatsoever, after sixteen years. But we aren't in contact, and likely won't be again unless and until we both make the social memory complex, lol.

Wow, I've had the same thing in the past too. In a long-term defacto relationship that yeah everything was a lie and secret after secret revealed over the years that blows your mind, but helps you learn acceptance of all sorts of things that you probably never would've come across in any other way and so maybe part of the perfection of creation and it's 'attracting of opposites' and how we.. harmonize with chaos. I learnt a lot from that particular relationship. I think we learn so, so much from our romantic relationships where people share their most intimate secrets with us over time and we sort of.. are their light-house in releasing some of those past-curses, but sometimes their troubles become major troubles for us too. That was me in the past too. Way before this particular catalyst. We're probably always experiencing some kind of catalyst while we are here, but hopefully as we keep learning and upgrading, and more accepting, maybe they become more positive in nature.

Your words about keeping yourself small and hiding your light really hit home. That's got me thinking, and I realize suddenly a lot of ways I've been doing that, and I sense that it's no longer the time for that sort of thing. It's time to get big and loud and shiny. Here's to that!

Yeah not ready yet, at least not in that particular work environment, but the rest of me is almost-ready to step out of smallness and back into wholeness, but this lesson definitely showed me that we're not invincible lol, and that there is sooooo many perspectives, infinite ways of looking at every situation and learning and exploring.

You've had some hard experiences, but you find yourself with opportunities as a result, like suddenly finding yourself with a family member to whom you can offer some other-service, who really needs someone to talk to who understands the horror she's going through. Having your spouse cheat on you would be bad enough, but with her own daughter? Good God. She needs the light, and you are capable of Bearing It to her.

Her husband is also the father of the daughter.  But I don't think this is an opportunity for me to help her. It's just being "brought to my attention" for me to work on. I say that because I'm not on the list of the "officially" told. It's still this "secret" that noone knows. I only found out because I think her dead-sister wanted me to bring it up to her, as it came out of my mouth automatically whilst we were having a coffee after catch-up-dinner (and I had no idea why it came out of my mouth only that we were talking about her dead-sister at the time, and then I came out with this blab about incest and exactly her situation came out of my mouth... and then afterwards, I was told that this is actually what they are going through at this time and I was mortified with myself that noone had told me and the trauma it may of caused her by me bringing it up in the way that I did).

So her sister must've wanted me to talk to her but the way that it came out, I doubt that she will be coming to me for help because it would've sounded as if I had brushed it off as not being very serious because I was using it as an example of how everyone has their own catalyst that they are facing - and everyone thinks their problems are worse than other people's because what each are going through is uniquely troublesome for them & never been experienced by that unique individual before, because it's their unique catalyst. I used her exact-example of incest as an example, along with death of family members, someone losing their legs in an accident, another person hungry on the street, another who is living as a prisoner, another who is in love with someone that doesn't love them back, another who is having chemotherapy for their cancer, and so on. I basically "nullified" her pain by having this random conversation about catalysts and only finding out "afterwards" that this is the exact catalyst they are going through, so I don't think she'll be coming to me for advice and.. I still have to "keep it secret that I even know about it" because otherwise the other person who confided it in me.. blah... damn society and their secrets. So much shame in society where they feel like they can't tell anyone anything and it's all kept in closets. I want to live in a more open-authentic world where we can talk about anything without having to keep so many secrets. New earth anyone?