If you activate your green-ray too early, how do you repair the damage?

[AnthroHeart]

Well I've used the pendulum to ask a lot of questions about anthros, since I want to sometime become an anthro shaman. In infinity there are an infinite number of them. I'm trying to experience oneness and infinity, without actually trying to. When I aim for something, that something changes because I have observed it.

I used to use some animal totem tarot cards that I had. I've got some books about the spiritual meanings of many animals. I often see repeating numbers, and look up the meanings of those.

I used to send love into the world, but realize that it would spread myself too thin. I send my spirit guide love and light and do an energy exchange with him.

There were 3 times when I heard in my head him speaking to me. Little short things. I asked an embarrassing question and heard the words "I wouldn't".
Then another time he spoke about my parents who were watching a movie with me "they're not really there."

And then one that I think came from a negative being saying "would you kill your dog to save the Universe?"

So yeah I find it hard to trust the inner me sometimes. And God I see as an impartial, infinite presence, as also being All That Is, without identity. Except we are God experiencing itself.

I used to be energy sensitive to the point where I could feel distortion ripples. I could analyze two choices and determine which one produced less distortion. Like whether I should post in a new thread, or make a response to the current thread I was in.

I used to be able to feel crystals and how they copied your energy field and amplified it. I have a quartz crystal wrapped so it produces a scalar field that is supposed to amplify thought. I used to use orgonite. But I don't really use tools beyond my pendulum now.

The pendulum only goes nuts when I'm clearing a large area, then it spins around rapidly and pretty strongly.

I don't know of any other people who have made a point to study anthros from other planes of existence. I saw my guide once as an anthro and just touching his ear made me cry for a few seconds.

I have felt immense love one time while sitting alone on the couch. I was so hypersensitive to it, it made me cry for a minute or so. Since then my heart doesn't open as fully, I believe  to protect me from being emotionally overwhelmed. The love that I will feel in the afterlife will probably be more than I can handle.

I know we will go where we are comfortable in the afterlife. I may push a little more because I want to make the effort to progress. But I don't want to end up in a density/subdensity that is more than I can handle. The greatest fulfillment I can imagine how would be to have an anthro body in the afterlife. I can't do it in this life, unless I travel the astral planes. But those can be dangerous.