If you activate your green-ray too early, how do you repair the damage?

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All those presences in the universe which are positive await your call. You are never alone. There is always a solid backing of love, courage, patience and the instinct for the proper time to walk away waiting for you if you can but disengage your computer. Your computer cannot evaluate the intuitions of positive and negative energy that are at the heart of your work in consciousness.

Thus it is that we say that the most effective way to deal with negative energies is constant, persistent, faithful daily meditation, which frees the computer [to] make connections deeper and deeper down into the intuitive and archetypical mind. All of your strength, all of your universe, all of your answers lie deeply within you, and that which you learn, you recognize, and that recognition is the mark of your knowledge. And until you have that recognition, you do not have the knowledge.

As a warrior of light you use no weapon but what may be called the armor of light, the sword of truth, and a wide open heart chakra, loving without stint, without expectation of return, and most of all with no judgment. It is not difficult to love negatively oriented individuals once you can connect into that portion of your deep mind which sees each person, whatever the vagaries of trouble and circumstance, as a holograph of the one infinite Creator. This entity becomes utterly essential to you, and you may pray with a full heart with this person and move from strength to strength, from learning to learning. All threat disappears, all separation vanishes.

... Therefore, it behooves the student of positive polarity constantly to exercise the will to polarize further towards positivity, and when negativity is viewed, to stop and give that entity the honor of an unstinting love, of a generous prayer that it may [be] held upward, that it may be protected, that it may be cherished and loved as a child of the one infinite Creator.


http://www.llresearch.org/transcripts/is..._0103.aspx


It is in these situations where one may see the hidden enemy as the self. It is your negativity that recognizes the paper-pushing negativity of bureaucracy. There is no actual reason that you cannot in such a situation constantly center your mind upon the best that you know, the love that you have experienced, the light that you have indwelt, the joy that has been yours, not because you wish artificially to change your circumstances and so be impregnable to evil, but rather so you may enjoy yourself and give a lighter, more joyful gift at the end of your incarnational experience to the one Creator."

This is what I've felt underneath. Hard, so hard at the time though. Maybe also made harder by the "2" people who knew what had happened (a little bit) wanting to kill or jail him for what he had done, or get me to go to the authorities or something. Always trying to make "me" the good-guy in the situation, and my mind was cross-eyed about what to do. Was he harming his family like he was harming these girls or was it something in me that he was "making fun of". Like, making it up to try and "pull down" the light-girl. Kinda. I didn't know if he was seeing just how far he could scare me for his "friend's amusement, and for his own ego-boosting", or if he was really doing these acts (and I still don't know). I just saw someone that needed help and was doing what I could, but then when I started seeing that he was doing things to harm me and my reputation... big-noting himself, etc. I was like .. omg, I'm sacrificing myself for what? Maybe I'm completely delusional. And I didn't want to believe that someone I trusted would be doing that to me, but I did start being "too" pushy because I wasn't accepting the situation (my own ego wasn't accepting the situation). It was a very big lesson for me, lots of humiliation and shame as I started to see myself "through their eyes" instead of "through the eyes of source". lol. I was like, omg... to them, I look insane.. accepting everything.. loving everything.. encouraging that same 'bliss' and the instant manifestation stuff, etc.. So I definitely needed to learn this because I can see how that was a repeating-cycle in my life that I hadn't realized was still there. (I thought I was just being really nice and raising the vibes lol... and instead.. I started to see how I was "too much" - "too out there"). And in so many ways I was. When the fear hit, I was in "save the world" mode (even though it was only my secret-thoughts about it, but I was "in that mode".. like.. definitely some kind of psychosis-something after the fear kicked-in).

But even though what he/they did was very harmful towards me and possibly others (allegedly because I have no way of confirming), I never wanted to harm back. I never wanted to choose anything but love for the situation or circumstance. Even if it meant crucifying myself and my truth never seeing the light of day, I don't think I'm capable of hate or vengeance. But I definitely felt hurt and distraught and at a complete-loss as to what to do because I couldn't trust my own mind, but what others were saying to do, didn't feel right either. So I just had to ... live with the uncertainty. I didn't and still don't want to believe in evil. It's just my delusion I guess, to think that this was just another catalyst for me, another way to level-up, another lesson to learn from.

For the first couple of months maybe I was definitely like this: and a wide open heart chakra, loving without stint, without expectation of return, and most of all with no judgment

But once my own reputation was being damaged by it, I was like, manic, like, in a trance-state-of-disbelief, and then my mind-flipped and everything that has been unravelling since then.

And also, it felt like... really bad timing, but then how could that be? Like, just as I was asking the universe for the "truth", when I was also certain I knew the truth.. why throw this one on me... (and other things... but this one was the big catalyst that I couldn't let go of because it was the big-one that flipped all my beliefs on its head)

And even though it's taken 1000's of questions to the IChing and years of going through my own traumas and trying to point the finger towards me for everything so that I can learn whatever it is I am supposed to learn and not repeat a cycle like this again, I still have held hope that this is true, that there is no separation. I have to trust their soul more than their human-vehicle/avatar-role. hehe.

I really do prefer to dwell in channellings like that which you quoted, and be around people who think this way, than what I've had to "come up against" in my day-to-day when people say that I'm the crazy one, and me thinking... well .. you might be right, why do I think this crazy soul-way when life is pointing the other way.

And now I'm just pondering and trying to reintegrate, that if I know that neg.entities exist and that this all may be true, that I have been feeling on a soul-level that the way that I've been thinking about it, is better, than the mainstream alternative. But if I'm wrong... then people may be out there being harmed, the secret revealed to me, and I'm not doing anything about it, and that's where the delusion kicks my butt. But, if I'm wrong...