If you activate your green-ray too early, how do you repair the damage?

[Glow]

54 times throughout all sessions. Three words.

Ra: I am Ra. All is well.

You did not come here to save the world, or humanity.
Think about it, would you dive into the void without knowing that all is well?

In my mind at that time, I was here to save humanity. Not alone, that I was a wanderer, that was my mission & I was perfectly happy with that role, it sung to my soul. I still kinda believe it actually, I'm working on the lightworkers project right now to bring people together to help each other.

Yet, I can still see that I had wounds, that I could accept what he had done, but I couldn't accept what he had done 'to me'. My own identity-to-the-world was damaged - I was humiliated/ashamed that I would step outside of my own integrity to help another and end up being that person's target. Mind couldn't compute that. Had to go 'mainstream' on myself to deal, turn off all spiritual crazy stuff, and yet, still had all the Law of One kinda beliefs in me (even before I had read the Law of One, this was the stuff that I used to believe myself, which is why it resonated with me so much when I finally read it).

Had to put law-of-one stuff on the backburner and everything else I had believed to try and walk through my life-traumas one-by-one to see where the blockage was that caused this insanity. Yet there's still this underlying 'we are here to be the change' resonating in my being. I don't know.

I don't think this is a heart chakra thing. As someone who opened their heart chakra very early with no theoretical knowledge its pretty easy peasey till you start working on your shadow self which comes later.

Issue here seems you tried to jump to far forward with unbalance heart:wisdom.
I would not fear opening the heart again. Its just time to learn to balance that love with light not martyrdom. You went to far without the wisdom to balanced and got scared slamming the heart shut to protect you from where you were headed. Now you can consciously go slower, reopen things but don't get swept away before you mind learns how to use such love.