If you activate your green-ray too early, how do you repair the damage?

[AnthroHeart]

I kept thinking I had to die like Jesus to save people, except the room turned into a giant microwave oven that would kill me that way. But there wasn't any pain. It was just freaky.

I resonate except the microwave. I felt like I was sacrificing my own soul - taking one for team humanity - to save another soul. Like an angel :/
And rather than a microwave, I ended up in the pits of hell-fire.

There was also a time when I was feeling down and typed into YouTube "Ra, are you there?"

Then I found a song called "Do you Call My Name?" by a group named Ra.

But it was a very dark song. I thought that my actions had trapped Ra in Negative space and that Ra was going to come after me for doing that to them.
I did get a little scared, but I thanked Ra anyway for teaching me a lesson. I wanted to be a furry anthro. At other times I wanted to be an angel, and thought I had to go through trials to get there.