01-05-2017, 01:14 AM
as for the memories part:
YES I HAVE MEMORIES.
someone, i think it was anagogy, said that if we completely remembered our home density, we would pretty much instantly blink out of existence, it would be like the paper cup in deep sea, because this density is so staggeringly separate from creation that our being could not stand the disparity.
The vague memories I have are actually literally the majority of what keeps me going in this world. They serve as my spiritual fuel. Generally they happen when I am in bed, either falling asleep or in a middle-of-the-night half-asleep state. They are memories of how my true being is endlessly interacting with the musical physical realm. the musical physical realm. this has been in my head for a long time, not expressed verbally so im having trouble communicating it. musical physical are ONE. Like how when you hear a deep bass drum kick, and there is a SENSATION of it physically kicking your chest in the best way.
so at night before bed, my higher self will treat me to unimaginable orchestras of musical physicality. I don't physically feel it, as a third-densite, but I remember what it feels like. i feel the center of my brain light up as like an electrical massage, emphasized by each note and each rhythm and each pulse. it's never boring, i could watch forever - but as i go deeper, i fall asleep more!
so my challenge must be to bring that deep dream memory into the conscious life. i sleep too much, 10-11 or 12 hours a night, but sleep is my favorite part of life because i feel at home for the only time in life. (I made a music called sleep, here it is: https://soundcloud.com/sjel-1/sleep it just now took on a new meaning for me, in that it feels like the first part is the constant trudging through the sadness only to arrive at the beautiful mystery love that is SLEEP)
honestly I think that my higher self is pushing the limit as to how much memory I can handle, because these orchestras cause me so much anguish. Seeing these orchestral entities pulsate and harmonize so ineffably is agonizing, because I feel that in all my music efforts I will never be able to put them into this plane.
YES I HAVE MEMORIES.
someone, i think it was anagogy, said that if we completely remembered our home density, we would pretty much instantly blink out of existence, it would be like the paper cup in deep sea, because this density is so staggeringly separate from creation that our being could not stand the disparity.
The vague memories I have are actually literally the majority of what keeps me going in this world. They serve as my spiritual fuel. Generally they happen when I am in bed, either falling asleep or in a middle-of-the-night half-asleep state. They are memories of how my true being is endlessly interacting with the musical physical realm. the musical physical realm. this has been in my head for a long time, not expressed verbally so im having trouble communicating it. musical physical are ONE. Like how when you hear a deep bass drum kick, and there is a SENSATION of it physically kicking your chest in the best way.
so at night before bed, my higher self will treat me to unimaginable orchestras of musical physicality. I don't physically feel it, as a third-densite, but I remember what it feels like. i feel the center of my brain light up as like an electrical massage, emphasized by each note and each rhythm and each pulse. it's never boring, i could watch forever - but as i go deeper, i fall asleep more!
so my challenge must be to bring that deep dream memory into the conscious life. i sleep too much, 10-11 or 12 hours a night, but sleep is my favorite part of life because i feel at home for the only time in life. (I made a music called sleep, here it is: https://soundcloud.com/sjel-1/sleep it just now took on a new meaning for me, in that it feels like the first part is the constant trudging through the sadness only to arrive at the beautiful mystery love that is SLEEP)honestly I think that my higher self is pushing the limit as to how much memory I can handle, because these orchestras cause me so much anguish. Seeing these orchestral entities pulsate and harmonize so ineffably is agonizing, because I feel that in all my music efforts I will never be able to put them into this plane.
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