A strange path

[Jade]

Hi Rax0r. I'm sorry that you are going through this tough time.

This is what is commonly referred to as, "initiation" in most spiritual. What is your own personal truth? How do you define that truth? How can you define something when the Creator is infinite?

And the pain of awareness! Oh my, once we begin to see the things that we haven't really "seen" before (like suffering on the scale that our planet suffers), it can be very overwhelming.

Do you meditate? If so, how often? I personally think there is nothing better for finding peace of mind than a routine of daily meditation. Science has proven that meditation creates new pathways and matter in the brain. This can only help us!!

I see you struggling with "The Truth". This is a big one. This is the attempt to move out of the green ray into the blue ray - a very, very noble thing to attempt. Thank you. The problem is, when we first begin "speaking our truth", it often comes out to others as crazy. Trust me. If it makes you feel any better, when I found the Law of One 3.5 years ago, my husband seriously thought he'd lost me. Now, we meditate daily together and he even just recently started reading the Law of One - about halfway through, like you. So, one thing to invoke is patience for people to come around. Like Minyatur said, this is a very personal experience you are going through - expecting those who have no idea what you are experiencing to have understanding is asking a lot. But, as this becomes more your "truth", and you feel good and sure, others will pick up on that. If you are unsure and a bit unhinged, then they will obviously believe it is the book. If you are sure and stable, then they must attribute it to the same.

What this requires is patience in balancing the lower chakras. Otherwise, when you do use the blue ray, you will sound, well, crazy. Distortions and blockages will come through. Learn your chakras. Start at the red ray. Feel them. Know them. This will give you a frame of reference for your emotions.

I say whether or not you share "the full story" depends on if you feel like you are on the verge of being committed. Have your frightened your family/therapist this much yet? If you haven't gotten that far yet, then I would continue to do my best to express myself and my truth to the fullest.

At the Homecoming Q'uo channeling, a question was asked regarding the importance of honesty. I think what Q'uo had to say is profound:

Question 1: The group does have further questions, beginning with: Please describe the circumstances in which honesty becomes a catalyst, and speak about the inner tools and awareness used to process that catalyst.

Q’uo: I am Q'uo, and I am aware of the query, my brother. You may say that honesty is a quality which is ripe with the opportunity for learning and for service to others, and that it allows by its very nature the response in kind for an harmonious exchange of energies. Thus, an honest query, an honest response, an honest confusion even, is a kind of invitation to catalyst to be presented, for this quality of honesty is not one which is widely utilized within your third-density illusion. It is a quality which is rarely mastered. In fact, it is difficult to find two entities that may express complete honesty towards each other in every moment. Thus when one perceives that there is a lack of honesty in any degree in the exchange of energies between another and the self, then the further querying as to the nature of the lack of honesty is brought about, necessitating the further exchange of energies with the hopeful outcome of each entity being able to process the catalyst required by the further energy exchange. And within that exchange and processing of catalyst, to be able to reach that honest expression of those feelings and thoughts within each self.

The fact that this is so difficult within your illusion guarantees that you shall find many opportunities on a daily basis to process catalyst if y- are wi- we correct this instrument, if you are willing to engage another entity in this process, and to engage until the process is complete. The ideal situation would be that the communication would be exchanged between each entity for as long as it took to reach the level of honesty that each was satisfied with. For you may find the qualities of honesty to be that which has many layers to it, for within each catalytic experience, there are various elements, various ingredients that go into the communication. Some may be mental in nature and objectively descriptive. Others may be emotional in nature and be colored with the feelings of the entity that are themselves distorted in such and such a fashion, according to how this entity has desired to see the creation about itself.

This of course, my friends, travels the full journey back to those pre-incarnative choices that each has made that allow one to see catalyst in such-and-such a fashion, so that perhaps two entities will look at the same catalyst and see it differently because that is their nature, and that is the way in which they have programmed themselves to be able to use catalyst, to produce certain effects: perhaps the strength of will, perhaps the resilience of the self, perhaps the ability to express the feelings of the heart, perhaps the ability to open for the first time the blue ray of clear communication. The opportunities are endless, my friends. Thus, when you engage yourself in a conscious fashion to provide honest communication with another human being, you are indeed engaged in the stuff of the third-density illusion, shall we say, in making clear of that which is unclear, and making whole of that which is broken, the healing of that which is wounded.

These are noble efforts, my friends. These are not easy activities to undertake. But if you are a conscious seeker of truth, it will be your nature and desire to do this in your daily round of activities above all else, no matter what it may seem to be upon your list of activities for the day. To find harmony where there was disharmony, to find peace where the was unrest, to find wholeness where there was brokenness, this is more important than buying your groceries, than running your errands, than delivering a friend to a place or destination. That you deliver yourself and another to the heart of your own truth in an honest fashion is one of the greatest gifts that you can give to another, and indeed to yourself, and ultimately to the one Creator who resides within you and discovers more of itself through your work to discover yourself.

This is a fine effort to make, my friends, and it is one which you will find the opportunity to accomplish in every day that you find yourself upon this third density planet.

The next step after honesty (blue ray) is faith (indigo ray) - to me, they go hand in hand. Have faith that no matter what words you speak, those that you are speaking to will hear what they need to hear.