10-21-2016, 04:28 PM
Hi guys its me again. I'm in desperate need of some help i don't know what i have done. To be honest I have been having a really hard time lately. I don't know whether my last post is truely honest as i made it out to be. I am in a really confused. Half way through reading the Law of One something changed, i dont know for better or worse.
I have "awakened" during it, the many things that are happening to me are strange. I feel as if I percieve everything differently, although i thought i had realised control of these things but im completely out of control right now and it scares me. I see the death and destruction around the world. I see the tension the fear, as it looks like there is a divide taking place not just in me but my reality.
I think i am experiencing the world as the creator.....
A divide between truth, and deception. A group of people who are lieing and others who are in pursuit of truth. I honestly am thinking the world is headed for a disaster, between the likes of russia and america. I am shaking in fear, sometimes i can't get to sleep because of this. Spend the whole night in bed shaking. Other times im in complete divine bliss listening to Sadhguru https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=atc3GkMAjXY.
I can't contain it anymore, there are too many lies in the world. I can't keep up an act for the rest of my life. I want to be truthful, its tearing me up inside. So I went to the doctor and spilled the beans, Please note i have not been true open and honest about anything up until this point and It was a really big leap of faith.
I tried to explain whats happening she recommended me to counselling, and at that point i couldn't take it anymore, im in tears....
My mum looked at me and asked are you ok.... I just collapsed in her arms....I started bawling my eyes out talking to her.... trying to explain what is happening.... but there was blank looks on her face.. I looked for anything to explain.... the bible... Yogis.... I tried to explain what is happening
I'm so scared right now i don't know what i have done.... I feel the same as the yogis in my experience...
The coming days I'm going to get questioned on everything I have been reading..... Do i tell them about the Law of One??? What do I do???? Have I made a big mistake??? I feel compelled to be honest???? But am i interfereing with free will..... I feel if i don't follow this path of honesty I shake in fear...What do I do I feel i can't ignore it.... I'm looking for answers everywhere but I feel I need to be honest????
My mum thinks I should see a priest and talk about my experience, or take up yoga.... I feel i need to talk to a yogi because maybe he will understand.... The only thing I know 100% is I can't do it alone I need help....
Please reply, I'm so scared right now...
I feel I have been lieing all this time to myself and others....I feel so ashamed... what do I do? I don't want to harm anyone or anything... the only thing I am harming is myself at the minute..... please help...
I have "awakened" during it, the many things that are happening to me are strange. I feel as if I percieve everything differently, although i thought i had realised control of these things but im completely out of control right now and it scares me. I see the death and destruction around the world. I see the tension the fear, as it looks like there is a divide taking place not just in me but my reality.
I think i am experiencing the world as the creator.....
A divide between truth, and deception. A group of people who are lieing and others who are in pursuit of truth. I honestly am thinking the world is headed for a disaster, between the likes of russia and america. I am shaking in fear, sometimes i can't get to sleep because of this. Spend the whole night in bed shaking. Other times im in complete divine bliss listening to Sadhguru https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=atc3GkMAjXY.
I can't contain it anymore, there are too many lies in the world. I can't keep up an act for the rest of my life. I want to be truthful, its tearing me up inside. So I went to the doctor and spilled the beans, Please note i have not been true open and honest about anything up until this point and It was a really big leap of faith.
I tried to explain whats happening she recommended me to counselling, and at that point i couldn't take it anymore, im in tears....
My mum looked at me and asked are you ok.... I just collapsed in her arms....I started bawling my eyes out talking to her.... trying to explain what is happening.... but there was blank looks on her face.. I looked for anything to explain.... the bible... Yogis.... I tried to explain what is happening
I'm so scared right now i don't know what i have done.... I feel the same as the yogis in my experience...
The coming days I'm going to get questioned on everything I have been reading..... Do i tell them about the Law of One??? What do I do???? Have I made a big mistake??? I feel compelled to be honest???? But am i interfereing with free will..... I feel if i don't follow this path of honesty I shake in fear...What do I do I feel i can't ignore it.... I'm looking for answers everywhere but I feel I need to be honest????
My mum thinks I should see a priest and talk about my experience, or take up yoga.... I feel i need to talk to a yogi because maybe he will understand.... The only thing I know 100% is I can't do it alone I need help....
Please reply, I'm so scared right now...
I feel I have been lieing all this time to myself and others....I feel so ashamed... what do I do? I don't want to harm anyone or anything... the only thing I am harming is myself at the minute..... please help...