A strange path

[anagogy]

Truly STS/STO is in itself both positive vs negative. But i feel like I am both together. Wanting to do both.

Hey Rax0r, thanks for sharing your thoughts, your story is interesting.

The feeling of being both STS and STO is natural. STO is actually better thought of as "service to all", including your self. It is the path of equalizing the balance of energy among all others (the collective best for everyone). Service to self is serving self at the expense of others (consequences are only considered insofar as they impact the self).

So if there was a pile of money, the STO being would say, "Everybody gets an equal share." The STS being would say, "I deserve more than the others."

A lot of people are under the confusion that STO means you serve others at the expense of self, and that is actually not true. That is an unbalanced act of martyrdom and is no better or more balanced than serving self at the expense of others.

We might more accurately call them the path of energy equalization, and the path of energy absorption.