Service to other-self?

[APeacefulWarrior]

Serving in which direction exactly? Would it mean just being of service to bring happiness, love.
Or specifically serving in a way that leads to the Law of One?
I must clearify since it makes little sense to serve someone if there won't be any result out of it.
Most people aren't awake and therefore their actions/desires are personal or simply of no importance to the the Law of One. I hope I am being clear on this.
The ultimate servers to others oftenly help us as we have seen only if this brings actual results to awakening/seeking the one, which then results in desiring to serve as well.
We struggle mostly of our lives if by pain, financial, social. But we get no service from the "guides" because this is of no improtance.
I get that seeing the creator in each entity, not judging, being nice overall is good and all. But this is not service, if I were to serve people of now would only abuse that to their own benefit and gain nothing related to creation.
I wish to serve, but I cannnot.

I think there's a minor misunderstanding at the root of this, although an understandable one.  A positive polarity is a state of being and an inherent form of energy exchange with the universe.  That one who is positively-polarized will then naturally wish to engage in service-to-others is a byproduct of this state of being, not the focus or a pre-requisite.

There is some reciprocality involved, such that someone deliberately seeking to serve others can help increase their level of positive polarization, but it's still sort of a tail-wagging-the-dog thing.  Someone who isn't positively polarized will likely not feel that urge to do service at all. Also, it's entirely possible for someone to engage in actions that seem externally to be STO, but ultimately out of self-focused urges.  (Such as Nurse Ratched-type figures in medical facilities who are superficially trying to help people, but are really petty tyrants abusing their power over others. Or, police officers who are more kill-happy than the criminals they hunt.)

Likewise, it's the DESIRE to truly do service for others that matters, not the end result.  I know Q'uo said this flat-out, although I'd have to spend a lot of time digging in the archives to go find the q'uote.  Ra also said as much, by implication, when he discussed the impossibility of actually predicting the results of one's attempts at service on the 3D plane.   Even the most wise of entities can see well-laid plans go totally awry, due to circumstances out of their control and distortions among other-selves.  Humans are so generally contrary and distorted that any attempt to do service is inherently chaotic and unpredictable.  Just look at how poorly Ra's own attempts to work with the Egyptians turned out in the long run, despite even the Council of Saturn thinking them worthy efforts.

In short, "seeing the creator in each entity, not judging, being nice overall" are ABSOLUTELY forms of service.

Simply being aware that one's actions can bring either help or harm, and seeking to minimize harm done, is a form of service.  I'd even go so far as to say that merely wishing to do service and finding oneself stymied is, itself, evidence of a STO focus.  And as Minyatur quoted/said, ways of engaging in that service are pretty much unlimited, because virtually any action which derives from positive energies is almost always STO in some way or another.

It's about the internal energetic process, not the end results.  If it were only about results, even Yeshua would be found lacking.