Christianity's repression of meditation

[Patrick]

Oh it was not my intent to suggest that my personal experience as a Catholic had been negative.  I have somehow always been able to ignore the negative information from the scriptures and focus on the true message that Jesus was bringing.  It was easy for me to see that a God of Love would not say or act in such and such a way, as is often portrayed in the bible, that was not congruent with the nature of Love.  Easy to see that this was non-sense that humans had added to the message as laws for the population.  Here in Quebec, in my generation, priests don't focus much on Hell and fear, they mostly talk about Love all the time, quoting beautiful passages from the bible.  My upbringing was within a loving and understanding atmosphere.

So my parents did not implant this on me, nor was is from attending masses in this incarnation.  Even though my parents do fear hell strongly, they did not push this aspect of religion onto me, they too focused on the Love and beauty of it when talking to me about religious stuff.

That being said, the blockage (fear) is still present.  No measure of knowing/understanding touches it.  It still rears its head from time to time, probably waiting for me to do something about it, but what?

I feel detached from that fear.  That is why I thought it could be a spell or something like that.  It feels unreal.  I can observe it without reacting to it, when it comes.  It does not sway me from my faith in Oneness.

Maybe it is just catalysts offered by discarnate negative entities, offering me a chance to reject the positive material I am reading when it happens?

I'm thinking that I am not here to fix it, but maybe I can somehow fix it anyway just by loving it?  Sending love/light to the offering entities.  Or just loving and accepting my part of this social fear, giving it lots of opportunities to transmute itself into something constructive.