Feeling of being watched

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This is just a feeling I have and I don't know if that can help but I think maybe you wish not to be alone. If there is a presence that is not you it must be accepted/desired if it is STO. STO entities surrounds us all the time waiting to serve. If a part of you wish for such things an STO entity may be of service by being your companion. You may interact with it if that can help you. STO entities only want to serve. That's if the STS entity you talked about is indeed gone. Maybe you can try contacting it to see what is it's purpose. It is there to love you? guide you? watch over you?

In the end that kind of contact with STO entities will end up being a mirror. What it wants and what you want should end up being one.

I'd like to take the opportunity to talk about mental illness because you mentioned it. I understand that your question would maybe attract people to tell you that you are crazy if you would have asked on another place where people aren't so open minded. I definitely don't think you are crazy. I think your relation to yourself about that is healthy. I think those people are doing a great disservice to the world and I'll tell you why.

You see I had a conversation with a friend a while ago about schizophrenia and since I have an uncle with this illness I felt like talking about it. My friend is studying to become social worker and I was telling him I don't think those people are crazy. He didn't understand and told me those people have a really big problem and they need meds to be normal. Of course I understand some people's disorders are so intense they cannot live normally without it. But what I think is wrong with that approach that the medical system has is that it creates barriers to that person. A lot of these people can have a normal life with a job and a familly. But from the moment you tell they are crazy and they believe it, they kind of merge with that idea and they really become crazy because they think they are. But what use is it for them to think they are crazy? How does that help them understand their situation. I think those people are just really sensitive and emotional and nobody can explain to them what's going on in their minds. They may even be in contact with higher consciousness without knowing it.

Let's say this ''guy'' is seeing someone standing next to him talking to him and other people do not see that. They instantly tell him he's just crazy and sees people that are not there because he's lonely and has imaginary friends. There will be a huge sensation a judgement within that person that will end up making him close himself to the world. I don't think that's a good way to help them. You see, I think that the things he sees are there or not is irrelevant because even though there is no nobody standing next to him, the thoughts within his mind are very real. Who are we to tell somebody that what he feels, think or see doesn't exist. Even if that is a projection of the mind of an emotional content that has been repressed, that thing, whatever it may be is very real. If nobody can help him understand himself then he thinks he's crazy. Moreover his feeling of helplessness and worthlessness can end up being a doorway to STS entities to mess up with him because it will make him sensitive, vulnerable and insecure. STS entities are just waiting for that.

Like I said earlier, this only causes barriers to this person. It puts him in a box and now he cannot get out of it. It becomes his reality. However I don't think this guy is less the creator than anybody else. His inner wold might even be more vivid than most people. I think that guy has the same potential to connect with the intelligent infinity like anyone else. And yet we measure his worthiness to a label. An idea. A thought. Just because of this only thought, he is chained to this disease. One thing is certain, the meds may calm him, but it doesn't come close to help him. He will not understand himself better and will not progress. It will only make him sleep. I think mental illness are like body illness. They are the result of how it is used. Except for genetic problems but then it becomes a choice of incarnation I suppose.

Your situation has nothing to do with mental illness but I just wanted to expand on the idea of labeling people with mental disease and it's effects.

In the end, don't think you are crazy. Don't let people tell you that. It only does more harm. Only when you see things with a clear and open mind can you start to understand yourself.

Thanks for sharing matrix_drumr.
In a lot of cases I hear that schizophrenics see negative entities that wish to harm them/those around. Is it plausible to say that the reason is what you described above?
If we were to teach this ill person in first place about love/light and light/love, they will be able to create contact with STO entities? I cannot imagine what a unique pathway that may be to the other world.