Negative Greeting Tones and Sensations

[Aloha]

I have had an experience similar to this but I am not sure if it is negative greeting or not.  From reading about the tones and "pulse" type feelings in the left and right ear,  I find myself wondering what to think about some recent ones I have encountered.

I had previously assumed that something in the left ear meant a "no" or was discouraging me in the direction of what I was doing, or if i happened to be asking a question, what I was asking.  That would mean that something in the right ear would be a positive indicator and would be a subtle push in the direction I was going/thinking/asking.

Recently I was meditating and I felt very overwhelmed as I am at quite a frustrating and difficult part of my life.   I asked, "is it possible to recover from all of this?"  And following I heard a low ringing in my left ear, similar to many that I have had frequently for years, either in the left or right.

I know that spiritual guidance and truths are not always easy to swallow,  and I can't say I have been the most wonderful person, but a part of me would like to know more about these experiences, especially after feeling as though such a discouraging message has been received.

I have had many experiences in the past with these tones that for the most part,  have indicated that left and right do have their own negative and positive meanings.  At the same time,  I have never really considered the idea that these experiences could be a negative greeting, and have attributed them to subtle hints, albeit vague at times, from my higher self.

I am a bit confused and feeling pretty lost with some of the experiences I have had recently, any help would be appreciated!

Our higher selves give us "catalyst" we have to balance in order to "graduate." "is it possible to recover from all of this?" It is until you are six feet under, to paraphrase my dad, who made it to age 92.

Today's inspiration so far:

Poem by Kabir

All we have to do
is slow down, and let this meditation take place.
It's like waves lapping upon the shore
every breath followed by another.

We must be right inside for every wave
not back at the last one or pushing the next one,
but gently, slowly, and lovingly,
feeling the soft strength that is life.

When we do this, hour upon hour,
we can come to each other like children.
If we follow the path of the Name,
this love will be there inside constantly.

But we must slow down and let the softness move us.
It is through the door of the present moment
that God enters into your life.
And it is through you that he enters into
the life of the world.

Perfect meditation creates love,
Perfect love sanctifies union,
Perfect union is the goal.

Meditation is the only medium
through which you can increase your love.
And love will spring forth,
will make you one.
And finally, everything will be organized.

And from Dr. Clarissa Pinkola Estes, One of the most calming and powerful actions you can do to intervene in a stormy world is to stand up and show your soul. Struggling souls catch light from other souls who are fully lit and willing to show it.

From me: Ask God directly for more encouragement, a sign. A tone in the right ear maybe or a tap on the head. You are sure to get it.