02-24-2016, 08:02 AM
(02-24-2016, 07:00 AM)earth_spirit Wrote: It is one thing to fantasize about a guy who deliberately presents his magnificent chemical vehicle in a seductive manner, but quite anohter to do the same with someone who seeks an "innocent" friendship.. The former is amoral, the latter is arguably "dirty" or immoral.
Again, I also consider the situation with "fictional" entities, as they appear in my dreams or 2D art. Is it STS or even "negative" behavior to "create" characters for the sole purpose of sexual fantasy? I'm not even sure if I am "creating" them or rather channeling pre-existent aspects of Infinity, but I digress. A fantasy involving coercion, manipulation, rape and such would be decidedly negative, but "consensual" fantasy seems ambiguous to me.
I am so glad you shared this with us. I feel this is an excellent source to discuss these types of things. We are all family.
I too struggled with this very issue, though mine was more of self pleasing nature. When I first started to wake up, I was so appalled by my sexual nature, that I completed shut it down. Doing so made me nearly emotionless to sexual advances from my partner. As I have progressed in my seeking, and learning, I have come to realize that our physical vehicles we know as human bodies are driven by hormones, and those hormones drive sexual arousal. It is simply a part of being incarnate here on this planet, with these bodies. When I have a sexual thought, I accept that is a part of being human, and I alter the thought to contain love, because if the person you are thinking about is "real" as it were, any thoughts of love will be beneficial to him/her. This will in turn make you feel better about it.
It is society that deems things "immoral" as this is not a word the Creator would ever use. If they continue to bother you, I would take some time to meditate, and ask for guidance. I assure you that there is more than enough love available to you.
You are beautiful just as you are. Never forget that you are loved.