Developmental Cycles and Blue Ray

[Turtle]

In short you appreciate observing people being in awe in front of something new to them that isn't new for you. Contemplation at it's best.

I appreciate learning and positive growth. The side effects of it which I cannot control and have stopped pretending that I can control, are something to learn from. Appreciation is not exactly it. It is observation and learning. By far the most common response is to cower and suppress one's development simply because others do not like it, even if it is at a subconscious, reactionary level. That doesn't help anyone.

I have tried being myself honestly in the past, but that doesn't do others any good. It often offends them, or is too much for them to handle. I lost a  friendship because they knew something about me. Even the conscious things can be too much.

It takes great care and consideration, which at first might sound counter-intuitive to what I'm talking about...it's not something to be done without practice and attentiveness...