Boundaries

[The_Tired_Philosopher]

Can I make use of this information without losing polarity?

I wonder about the exact same thing. Not because I desire women (I find their genitals and bags of flesh on their chests unappealing) but because it is a difficult and interesting conundrum.

Intimacy shouldn't be so calculated and difficult.

Even if that stuff works, I think such would be a consequence of messed up relations between the sexes more than anything else.

I feel as if there is something very wrong with the female psyche, as if it had been damaged. There are such references in Jeshua Channelings, though I wouldn't know about its validity.

Before I get to you Jeremy, let me just respond to this first.

Firstly.  Regards Genitalia and the bags of flesh on women's chests.  Yummy!  That is all.

Just kidding!  Haha.  Hah.  No?  No.  Okay, moving on...  I find a smile to be infinitely more attractive than any physical feature.  I'm also of the...Horribly misplaced misfortune of not giving two craps about the body of a person.  My last girlfriend was 280 pounds at 5'4, I didn't care even when people stared at me while walking hand in hand with her.  The result, I'm kind to every type of body type, and I'm starting to learn I maybe shouldn't be as the body of a person does sometime showcase the mind of a person.  Not always, not always at all.  Some obese people just have medical problems, others literally are innocently naive/ignorant of how to care/listen to their body.  Some people just don't give a crap.  Just like some skinny people can eat like a buffet a day and never gain a pound (oh god how I wish!!!) I find we're all crazily unique.

Anyways, since we're also on the subject of misogyny, of which I do feel often now a days, I try to reconcile my recurring misogynistic thoughts, bitterness, and fury at the various women who have basically wrecked my entire life and dreams and desires (or my anger towards myself being projected onto them) by remembering that I am no better if I view them in such a way.

The Jeshua Channelings exposed me to a complete understanding inwardly of myself and why I have such problems with women.  My mom didn't help, and the various types of women I was attracted to, did not help either.  In the end, if I succumb to misogyny, I personally would have failed myself and my desires to not be treated like a 'typical societal man'.  Aka only caring about tits, ass, pussy, and giving less than a single f*** about who a person is beneath the skin, their mind, their soul.

It is not fair to a female to judge her as being the typical trait of a bad-apple-female, even if I personally think over 50% of the woman in the United States are...  Similarly this goes both ways, not all men are typical of a bad-apple-male (even if I think over 70% of them in the US are...).  I mean, I absolutely admit, the other night my roommate, who's a girl, reminded me of everything I hate about the way society has twisted the female psych, and how much it has twisted the male psych, into these monstrous abominations of what they once were and could be.  I even made a status last night on fb affirming this, Society has raped the minds of people and left behind monsters...

Include the subliminal messaging about what a male and female should be like in extremely popular shows like How I Met Your Mother, Friends, The Big Bang Theory, and you might begin to realize that when you see people enacting these traits, it is a conditioned programming, not who they ACTUALLY want to be.

There is a reason depression is rampant.  Not being able to be yourself will cause that.

There is a reason many Transgendered and Transexual people become narcissistic and cold.  Not being accepted forces one inwardly into extremes of selfishness just to feel accepted.

Mainstream Society, is a monster.  Then regard the blatant SE'X'SE'X'SE'X' subliminal marketing campaigns, the endless sexual recurring hidden messages in advertisements (youtube it) sinking into the subconscious at all angles until one is sitting at home thinking they should 'f*** b******' and not care, using human's for their genitalia not caring that there is more to a man than a penis and a woman then a vagina.

How some men compare women to dogs, and some women do the same...  That I catch myself sometimes thinking I'll just revamp my pof profile to try and perform hook ups rather than trying to find people to be friends with because every single person I end up talking to either wants to get with me and nothing more or just disappears tells me I need to take a step back.  Not big on hookups, not big on sex itself anymore actually.  Since sex is so poorly performed by many people I've come to discover...  I just try to remain as-is, looking for friends, people to connect with at a mental or spiritual level, and not just a bodily one.

This society, is very, very hard to live in...  Low vibrational environment of some pretty gross tiers, and I am frickin in itttt. . .

Anyways.

Can I make use of this information without losing polarity?

Do not let the fear of depolarization hinder you, it is very well to remember that we are designed to polarize.  The typical occurrence in this design is that of taking two steps forward and one step back.

You sometimes must depolarize to repolarize then further polarize.  Or, sometimes it is desirable to depolarize temporarily to better understand something, as higher energetic/perspective approaches are not always appropriate for some situations.  As an example, Don asked Ra about what an entity being attacked would do.  My personal feelings for this instance are... Someone trying to murder you, makes it fine to depolarize in stopping such an action with returned violence, unless you're a martial artist and can stop a person with minimal violence without harming them or killing them, anything you do beyond allowing yourself to be murdered for their sake and love for them, or stopping them without returning the harm they sought upon you, will depolarize you potentially, it just depends on you.

And truly, depolarization is not a major issue as much as becoming confused in why you're polarizing at all.  If you lose sight of the intentions and reasoning's for performing such work, depolarization is probably a proper energetic occurrence for the sake of healing to begin to rediscover yourself and why you do as you do.

I guess all I'm saying is, don't worry, be happy, everything, is gonna be all-right~ (or however Bob Marley put it) -cough- I mean, don't worry about depolarizing, you will have a loooooot of chances to not only redeem that lost charge, but to further it.

...Not to say stop caring and do whatever you want...  Just don't allow depolarization to deter you from the subtle work of discovering yourself, you can't realistically CONSTANTLY chain polarization beyond a few times without causing the exponential nature of doing such to skyrocket you into areas you're not ready for (over-polarizing).

Not just that, but making mistakes (potentially depolarizing) is EXACTLY how we learn.  Depolarization can be good, it is not something you should overtly avoid.

As a final note...

Intimacy shouldn't be so calculated and difficult, I find that everyone does what those damn popular tv shows do, play games with people thinking they'll learn and discover they're just right for them, when in reality, playing games with another is cruel.  Be open and honest, if things aren't right with each other you can still be friends, rather than thinking the other is manipulative when they might just be scared of letting a person in.