[split] "The dark attacks from the shadow ..."

[The_Tired_Philosopher]

Ah, so you're just judging yourself through me.

Alrighty, good enough for me.

I am not doing any judgment, I am trying to make you aware of something.

Just like when you said that light hurts, you have been the one judging youself with light.

Ah, so you're just negating me then.  Very good, sir.

Neither that.

Perhaps you are the one judging and negating yourself?

Please Min.  You have not listened to anything I've said even when I listened and considered what you've said.  You constantly posit your version over mine where I am not positing my version as above any others.  I have my version of Reality and the Truth as do you and every one else here.  I am sharing my view, you constantly tell me in implying it's wrong for 'the way things really are'.

You don't even see that you describe yourself.  You deny EVERYTHING I say.

It is.  Very.  Annoying.  Yet I respond out of respect, I could just ignore you endlessly but then no one learns anything on either end.  But I see no one is learning even as I respond.  It asks me to approach you in a very unique angle.

Let me show you yourself.

Reality does not do as you've said it does and you know this to be true, you've read the Ra Material and seen portions that do not add up, and you too have moved away from THE VERSION of Reality posited in the Material for your own, but believe it to be the way reality is for everyone because you literally apply everyone as you without recognizing the uniqueness in them mechanically.  You are certain ways and you deny and judge that.

Now let me recap.

I just told you what you were, how reality actually is, and what is and is not the way things are for you.

If you do not see yourself in this, then I decree you do not actually know what you're talking about, but giving an earnest effort to make is seem as if you do for the sake of being the way you want to be, which is apathetic, unfeeling, and uncaring.

Now let me re-recap, I just assaulted you.

If you don't feel anything, then you do not understand how I feel, or I, or my reality or my Truth or anything of these things or their natures.  And in that confusion, you try to confuse me too.

In ACTUALITY, the underlying reality, my way is my way, Ra's way is Ra's way, L/L's way is L/L's way, Carla's way was Carla's way, and your way is your way.

Your way is not my way.

I REPEAT.

Your way is not my way.

You've given me quite a nice headache, pounding on the right side because I'm unsure if I should use scathing words to cut into that numb shell and touch some actual meat and tug away, or if I should offer sincere kindness and endless consideration trying to coax you out of that shell of you-ness.  I don't want to do either honestly because I see now that you do not hear, listen, see, understand, or know what I am talking about, but you speak a lot of confused aspects of The Ra Material.

You use your answers as placeholders for THE answers.  Nothing underlies Love except that which it stemmed from, which I promise you, was not a primordial void.  Eternity is Eternity.  You call my way Complex, I see it as Simpler than your way however.

Either we're now dancing a game of blocks (makes me want to play minecraft) or we're stumbling around each other like two children unable to make amends and bridge their understandings because one says their way is the way and another feels their way is only their way.

And I'm going to stop dancing now.  You make me tired too.  Because I can't do anything to help you see that while you are not wrong, you are also not completely right.  Never mind anything else pertaining to how you 'come off' judging me then deny doing so, and how you 'come off' negating my views then deny doing that as well.

What would you like me to do almighty wise Elros?  I shall bow down and kiss your toes if that'll help, I'll worship the ground you walk upon, and decree your way as THE WAY, while secretly living my own out of your view and influence.  Will that help my slavemaster?  IS that what you want?  Me to agree with you?  Say, 'Yes Min, You're absolutely right and I was blind and wrong all along because I did not hear, listen, see know, understand, or comprehend anything at all and was always too confused but you're so pure and proper in all you say that your way is THE WAY.  Hallujah I AM FREE, THANK YOU!'

Cause I'll do that.  Feet don't gross me out, and the ground is fun to worship.  I am a hypocrite and go back on my own opinions often as they are usually changing as I go about my life.

How shall I please you this time?  Maybe I'll admit that I am capable of negation and judgment, or maybe I'll just show you what it means to be negated and judged?  OR maybe I'll just not care, or maybe I will.

OR maybe who knows.  I don't but you sure seem to, so enlighten me Elros-Tar-Minyutar.  Tell me the Truth about my Reality and all that is wrong with it.  I await you.