01-23-2016, 02:30 PM
Jade, I just hope you know that mine and your choice are really the same thing.
We just live them differently. It does hurt to be separated and misunderstood but I honestly see the kindness behind your views, I just feel I'm not...I used to be as you were. I was more introverted though, I would help teachers in school, clean up messy classrooms, let them know if something was amiss. I would help others to my detriment, I was already snuffed out love-wise before middle school for my difference living with a drunk meth father and a mother who to this day cannot accept blame but puts it on everyone else, and plenty of fighting, sometimes physically and I'd be the brunt of her verbal anger and his physical anger.
I'm a bit less kind essentially. My version of choice is to help all. I don't need polarity to perform, just desire and will.
I admit polarity is the Charge to incite more movement in will and desire at becoming... Well, at Be-coming.
But intensity of intent in desire is the fuel to that charge I discovered personally during my Work In Consciousness.
I'm...not very charged. I feel Grounded in a neutralizing sense. The intensity I felt was overwhelming in that when I took.up the Polarity Mantle as an Adept I overpolarized so.heavily I was left in a state of heavy catalyst that I otherwise wasn't prepared for.
I.see no.onslaught though... Our realities differ there now that I've dropped that Ra Material related belief. The Universe followed and catalyst now is not onslaught endlessly one thing after another. It is very kind instead now.
I find it...weird (said the weird guy) that you don't view our choices as equal, because of polarity terms as laid out by this Material.
You've been separated from I in choice in your mind because of Polarity. I see no separation. Just forms of energy to play with.
I do not think you.should speak for everyone here in regards to an overabundance of faith. Generalizing an imbalance isn't proper in my eyes. I still need to work on faith in myself and others around me. I need to work on trust just as much, trusting in faith. I am skeptical and...critical. i see objectiveness is and can be subjective.
So when our realities differ, and I see the cause. I don't have faith in such reconciliation. No trust in...the better good of people I know. Its easy to have faith in strangers. its hard to have faith in friends. For me anyways...
Plus I have parental issues and a wildy distorted idea of trust as I never had anyone to trust. I still feel that way. Mommy issues. Daddy issues. And all the weird baggage psychological that comes with those. As I have shared in my other recent thread on 'Transexualism'.
How does my blue ray shine so profoundly in the face of an apparent closed green ray? I just want you to realize we are the same in choice. We just have different goals and plans and desires. But we aren't so different as to deny similarity I'd hope...
As I said, I'm unorthodox. Emotional, an Empath without control of his emotions, by choice. To be...thick in it to suffer to better know, take in, and what you call alchemy I think of as...Balancing. I turn light just as I do darkness, if you'll allow those improper terms for shades of intent filled energies.
As I said, I'm service to One/All. There is a level of purity I seek in my Truthseeking. It is looked for in impure ways and will be understood as never being understandable.
I'm operating blind, deaf, and mute metaphorically metaphysically. Hellen Keller, born same day as me but years earlier did the same thing, literally, physically. I've taken a less intense version of those lessons I imagine. I can be beyond wrong, completely incorrect.
Its why you should not follow my words if they do not feel proper, hold true, or resonate. My path is my path, yours is yours, I think they are the same even as you view them to be different. I don't think I'm 'ahead' or 'behind', I think we're right next to each other, enjoying our own versions of the Truth, enjoying our own Realities.
We are right next to each other, yet infinitely 'apart'.
We are the same, in different ways.
And there is no pure manner of explaining this in the English language without distortion, misunderstanding, skewed context... Without Distortion.
Do you think we are not of the same Polarity?
We just live them differently. It does hurt to be separated and misunderstood but I honestly see the kindness behind your views, I just feel I'm not...I used to be as you were. I was more introverted though, I would help teachers in school, clean up messy classrooms, let them know if something was amiss. I would help others to my detriment, I was already snuffed out love-wise before middle school for my difference living with a drunk meth father and a mother who to this day cannot accept blame but puts it on everyone else, and plenty of fighting, sometimes physically and I'd be the brunt of her verbal anger and his physical anger.
I'm a bit less kind essentially. My version of choice is to help all. I don't need polarity to perform, just desire and will.
I admit polarity is the Charge to incite more movement in will and desire at becoming... Well, at Be-coming.
But intensity of intent in desire is the fuel to that charge I discovered personally during my Work In Consciousness.
I'm...not very charged. I feel Grounded in a neutralizing sense. The intensity I felt was overwhelming in that when I took.up the Polarity Mantle as an Adept I overpolarized so.heavily I was left in a state of heavy catalyst that I otherwise wasn't prepared for.
I.see no.onslaught though... Our realities differ there now that I've dropped that Ra Material related belief. The Universe followed and catalyst now is not onslaught endlessly one thing after another. It is very kind instead now.
I find it...weird (said the weird guy) that you don't view our choices as equal, because of polarity terms as laid out by this Material.
You've been separated from I in choice in your mind because of Polarity. I see no separation. Just forms of energy to play with.
I do not think you.should speak for everyone here in regards to an overabundance of faith. Generalizing an imbalance isn't proper in my eyes. I still need to work on faith in myself and others around me. I need to work on trust just as much, trusting in faith. I am skeptical and...critical. i see objectiveness is and can be subjective.
So when our realities differ, and I see the cause. I don't have faith in such reconciliation. No trust in...the better good of people I know. Its easy to have faith in strangers. its hard to have faith in friends. For me anyways...
Plus I have parental issues and a wildy distorted idea of trust as I never had anyone to trust. I still feel that way. Mommy issues. Daddy issues. And all the weird baggage psychological that comes with those. As I have shared in my other recent thread on 'Transexualism'.
How does my blue ray shine so profoundly in the face of an apparent closed green ray? I just want you to realize we are the same in choice. We just have different goals and plans and desires. But we aren't so different as to deny similarity I'd hope...
As I said, I'm unorthodox. Emotional, an Empath without control of his emotions, by choice. To be...thick in it to suffer to better know, take in, and what you call alchemy I think of as...Balancing. I turn light just as I do darkness, if you'll allow those improper terms for shades of intent filled energies.
As I said, I'm service to One/All. There is a level of purity I seek in my Truthseeking. It is looked for in impure ways and will be understood as never being understandable.
I'm operating blind, deaf, and mute metaphorically metaphysically. Hellen Keller, born same day as me but years earlier did the same thing, literally, physically. I've taken a less intense version of those lessons I imagine. I can be beyond wrong, completely incorrect.
Its why you should not follow my words if they do not feel proper, hold true, or resonate. My path is my path, yours is yours, I think they are the same even as you view them to be different. I don't think I'm 'ahead' or 'behind', I think we're right next to each other, enjoying our own versions of the Truth, enjoying our own Realities.
We are right next to each other, yet infinitely 'apart'.
We are the same, in different ways.
And there is no pure manner of explaining this in the English language without distortion, misunderstanding, skewed context... Without Distortion.
Do you think we are not of the same Polarity?