[split] "The dark attacks from the shadow ..."

[Minyatur]

From what you said you consider valid to cultivate the "monster" within you, as such you could equally not polarize positively. STO is still based upon what self wants.

The Logos won't matter, you'd explore different archetypes of the mind to still work on your polarity as this is the context of experience within this Octave. Perhaps you come from a different Logos, if not then your very existence is fully an extension of the Logos.

There is no being good enough or not either, there's being resonant with or not. You'll go in positive densities if your being is resonant with those times/spaces and if not you'll go where you are resonant with.