01-05-2016, 10:59 PM
(01-05-2016, 02:53 PM)Jeremy Wrote:(01-05-2016, 02:13 PM)The_Tired_Philosopher Wrote: I think the boggling is a good thing.
Now that you see this self perceived issue, could you tell yourself why this issue arises at all enough so to bring it here for input? Is there a root to these feelings? How and what did it feel like when you realized you didn't really want to be there because its not something you'd want? You call it Forced Acceptance so I hope my last sentence doesn't sound presumptuous.
In...100% honesty, if you want to understand why she is asking such and is as she is.
You should ask her
Oh and 110% honesty, I'd be scared to go into a room, lay down, be put unconscious, sliced open, by strangers, fiddled with, bits of me removed or new stuff added, sewn shut, then wake up all alone sore and pained with nurses who (least the hospitals I've been to) can barely share a shred of a real eye wrinkling smile.
...Naw, I'd be horrified... How would you not be?? Its absolutely logical. Emotions aren't illogical, they incite illogical thinking, they're very, very logical, I'd argue Superational Logical.
Are you sure yer not just a bamf who doesn't afraid o' anything??
I look at life in terms of productivity. I'm here to teach and learn. So asking here is to possibly learn the spiritual implications or reasons for what I consider counterproductive thinking
I'd agree that emotions themselves aren't illogical and the reaction to those emotions are the more illogical part of it so maybe I worded it incorrectly.
If you're horrified, you're still holding on to this illusion a little to much. Like I said earlier in the thread, the thought of dying matters not to me. Only that those here that hold an emotional attachment to their perceived loss of me would be the only unfortunate aspect of death.
Otherwise, it's not that big of a deal.
Emotion can be primary if one is balanced enough to consciously process it and allow love to come through.
Other than love coming through, being able to have that ah ha moment where one can sense the truth and the lesson involved in a particular interaction or situation, one can then learn from it. In this instance, love may not be warranted as ones lesson wouldn't have been presented had some emotion not been illicited. So yes, emotionally speaking, it's not all useless as I wasnt trying to imply that all emotions are counterproductive. That would just make someone callous and indifferent to the world which I am definitely not.
Well personally I agree, death is scary only on the pain part to me. Otherwise, gassing myself would be the preferred way to go cause pain suuuucks! For me the fear is all in being alone with that pain and being unable to handle it. I remember being in the Maternal Ward when my ex was in labor, and hearing another woman crying in pain begging it to stop and it sort of stuck with me when she started screaming.
That's what my fear is of awakening alone in a hospital.
(01-05-2016, 03:10 PM)Jeremy Wrote: I'm also on my 9th day in a row of work so I could be just babbling nonsense at this point lol
I know that feel No worries o:
(01-05-2016, 10:32 PM)Jeremy Wrote:(01-05-2016, 10:26 PM)matrix_drumr Wrote:(01-05-2016, 09:55 PM)Jeremy Wrote:(01-05-2016, 09:46 PM)matrix_drumr Wrote: How do you think your family would feel like if you were about to die and you would have told them not to come because you don't need emotional support?
Why is that any of my concern?
Ya see, family doesn't mean the same to me as it does most. This famialial bond based upon genetic similarities matters not to me. I don't see a differentiation between this perceived family bond and a bond betwixt an other self. These bonds are simply a deluded illusions of unity that simply transcends all regardless of blood
It matters not because they are familly. It matters because they love you.
Again, why is that any of my concern? Why does their perceived bond that they inconceivably have have any impact upon me?
Inconceivable to you, probably inconceivable to them that it's such to you. It could be of your concern because you could care about such things enough to let them push or pull things in your life.
Or perhaps you could ask yourself why you think its inconceivable, its not to me, why is it to you?