Why I am not a vegan

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Why? I guess people regard themselves with a certain seriousness that I've never really understood. So many serious attitudes in the world. I understand that humour can be hurtful, but I don't understand why people take themselves so seriously.

It's likely that I just don't know how to identify with the sensitivity. Course, on that note, gentility is usually taken to be compassionate. I just find it strange how intensely people invest in their ideologies and beliefs, just in a general sense, this discussion is just a good example.

It always blows my mind a bit when people make absolute statements about the world based on philosophy. Of course, where philosophy ends and 'fact' begins is different for every person.

You are quite right that I can be a serious person, but I do not take myself too seriously. I was trying to say something about members in general. You are free to laugh at me all you want, and I will be glad to join in. Ultimately, I think laughing at one's self is a great skill.

However, I can take a subject seriously. It would be difficult for me to find any humor in suffering. So I can be quite serious when it comes to this particular subject matter. However, laughing at human folly is another story.

The problem is that people make assumptions, so for all my amusement at human folly it is more often taken as being amused out of joy for suffering or the like. I do find humour in suffering because I think it is ultimately temporal, yet it is completely consuming in the moment.

Again, I had this discussion with my girlfriend last night where it is in my nature to laugh when things get tough, serious or painful. I seem to operate the opposite of most people. When I'm doing something I really enjoy I often get serious, but when I'm working on something challenging or faced by an extreme circumstance I give way to laughter. The worst is that I always want to smile and laugh when people are venting their feelings because from my point of view it is good that they are expressing and moving their energies, which makes me happy. But for the person, they just feel miserable, see me smiling and then feel like I am antagonizing.

It seems I find the most amusement in things that others find really frustrating. Whereas I will often get frustrated for things that are simple to others.

For awhile I thought maybe I was 'broken' in some way and not able to feel compassion. I'm not a very good comforter and sympathy seems pretty foreign to me. I beat myself up over it a lot but eventually I realized that I just view things in such a different way that when others feel like they are being most challenged, I see the most beautiful opportunities for growth. Thing is is that most people don't care to hear that

So, I often just remain stony and silent during serious, intense conversations and situations to hide the fact that I'm actually bubbling up inside. Maybe I'm addicted to challenges as there have been many times in life I have intentionally made things more difficult for myself just to prove to myself I can master the challenge.