As you awaken more and more...

[Verum Occultum]

When I allow my deeper self to shine forth, I can't control it. It gives me a false sense of God and religion, a deep fear of it.

Eradicate your fear and become the God you have always been. This existence is really psychedelic and weird. Ultimately the mechanisms are known but the why's not. No one can know them, not even Ra. That is how deep existence is. I do not demand anyone to go beyond 'what is possible', but you can always enjoy yourself! Indigo brother, I do not walk in your shoes, but the way I see it according to the many posts and comments you have entertained, you have lots and lots of potential if you can let yourself out, as I see you have done in numerous threads. There is no need to hold back.

You are a living allegory and your Higher Self knows this.