Giving thanks throughout the day

[The_Tired_Philosopher]

I use the small little things.  Like my clothes are comfy, thank God for that.  I have a bed I can always look forward to, thank God for that.  I have beautiful mountains in every direction, thank God for that.

My throat is sore and I'm coughing and sneezing, thank God for the funny relief of a sneeze or the clearance feeling of a cough.

I even thank for things I hate and here's why.  I hate because I don't understand at all.  I thank God for horror, because if not for it I would be blind to the reality of how perfectly fine and dandy my life is (relatively but meh) and how seriously cruel and distorted this realm can turn one.

Hatred is a form of Love I've opted to explore and have found it to be adequate to push, but poor to pull.  It is love of a furious nature, and it is not fiery but explosive.   It can push with great force but it has poor retraction, others move away from anger naturally because its an energy akin to sending love, but of an undesired nature, Love can be explosive, or fluid, or torrential, or fluttery.  Hate lacks the finesse and gentleness (or if its gentle, the calmness).

So thank your emotional state.  Thank.your own life and being.  Thank you, Jeremy, for Being here today, for offering me catalyst, for offering your views and thoughts and words and actions.  Thank you for the placement you're in to be of aid to others.

Being thankful isn't tricky, its just one of those egotistical areas where we must stop accepting things for granted.  Thank you Sun for your light and love, thank you Moon for your revolution around I.  Thank you space for the 'room' to orbit within infinitely on every scale.  Thank you time for offering the perception of before and after.  Thank you energy for various reasons, thank you vibrations for various (and winky) reasons, thank you frequency for being so beautiful in tones.

Thanks 3D, and my neighbor who... well its complicated, thanks guy for being a jerk to my property.  Thanks 3D for the lessons.  Even though I've chosen Neutrality over playing the thankful-for-but-viewed-nonetheless-as-mad game of Polarity, there's more to life than Service To Entities, there's thanks for absence and thanks for presence and forgiveness and thanks for the entirety of the whole, even if I desire to destroy it now and then, the thanks lies in the truth That I am here to learn about many things.  I am...Inexperienced maybe.  Unwise.  Too caring.  Too thoughtful, too attached, I am...

Right where I should be, exploring Hellish sides of my reality through myself, by choice.  As a Monster and a Lover, a horror and a blessing.

Everything and Nothing, and I'm grateful for the experience, just.

Put off by it very often too.  I didn't think...such depths of horror were.

Its rough but...I put myself here.  I'm tired of it, so I'm ready to do whatever it is I'm here to do, without Polarity interference (mental-emotional/intentionally) or intellectual insanity..