The feeling I have.

[anagogy]

My schizophrenia makes me afraid of just being. I've been chased by black holes in my imagination that totally freaked me out. I thought the Earth's core was turning into a black hole and I could feel being crushed.

Gemini, didn't you say that your schizophrenia was brought on by using pharmahuasca?

If I am not mistaken on that front, I want to ask you if you could go back in time would you have stopped yourself from doing it in the first place? Or did you learn lessons from that experience that you wouldn't undo?

I have no point, or object lesson, in asking this, I'm simply curious about your life experience.