11-22-2015, 06:38 AM
Its all valid...
I refuse to argue my reality's perspective. Blood red aura's denote pain as far as I know.
Does everything naturally have to suffer to die via natural processes? Iunno. But I percieve pain. My sperm do suffer when ejaculating into a vaginal space. Many proud cells burned in a flood of acidic content upon exiting the battlestation upon successful departure (oh god I laughed so hard typing that!)
Every example arguing against honestly contains my point.
That's my reality. Does it make me sick? How I see through the construction to a variant/version of 'why' that quietly inferences what many already questioned of the Biblical God.
Is any Creator moral? How does one experience self and infringe? How does anything not get accepted? (Suicide, point blank example). I've laid out the contradicting logic I've seen. And I see quite a bit sadly -points to 216 Phi Thread I made-
-Points to 3 6 9 12 15 thread referencing Pi as the hidden pattern of Hydrogen Quantum states-
I don't disagree with the Law of One, instead I see its just too incomplete for me personally, offers too much without the underlying context, maybe even a lack of syntax being available, the seeming unknowing behaviors.
I mean, the Orion Empire? Demonic tier entities assaulting us 'metaphysically', no wrong, but can't suicide?
Free Will belongs to Creator, I'm just an atom sized spark of light to even lesser variants of Creator. What does snuffing me out matter? It only does when I do it to myself or an innocent (didn't karmically 'deserve it')
I could write a book on...no, actually I couldn't. Wouldn't.
Just understand, there's lies everywhere. You can't know anything here. You're literally a piece of designed equipment to get abused and hurt to learn. To do kindness in a dark cruel place. To love and enjoy whatever and whenever you can while dealing with pain and suffering all around you.
Yeah, its a nice pleasant place.
But someone suffers, always. By design. No wrong except what Creator deems.
I don't even know! I'm just relaying observations!! I can't argue what I don't know! I think I know but I don't!
If I just knew something for certain...
Life feels like a dream constantly again now. I guess that's no surprise.
Because it literally could be.
And. I'd never know.
Acceptance? There. Done.
I. Am. Ugly. Bag. Of mostly water!!
I. Feel... Pain. Darkness... Terrible.
Everywhere.
Truce?
Will God accept a truce by Human? I desire to not be bombarded with 'directed' catalyst cobstantly day after day.
Bargaining? I'm in Hell, there is no making Souls accept anything, that burden is on the machine operated by the soul.
I wanted to be alone specifically to protest againsr God. If the only miniscule utterance of power over Creator is through being able to screw myself, should tell you what kind of Creator it is to humanity, as a species.
Just some design.
How do we know we aren't repeating everything that's already happened before?
I'm 0-80% sure I've redone this incarnation at least 5-7 times due to suicide.
Yeah, I feel like I'm stuck in hell.
I can't fix that except to finish the hell, up.
No one else can unless they can make everyone else stop hurting and suffering and causing others to hurt and suffer.
I'm tired. That's the Truth. I don't want to bother with life anymore, just wanna finish'er up and do something else where I'm not useless beyond passively giving light to my environment... Assuming I'm even a Wanderer.
The worst part is I can't let go of this. I'm only here now because of it. I was done with Life right when this all showed up, and now its bleak and pointless too potentially by its own logic. I'm only here because of it, I think I have said in the past how I attribute my still living to the Law of One. Talked me out of ssuicide.
Now that its how it is to me, as I said, I literally ONLY continue via Faith. Survival? So tired of it.
Just want to finish it up.
Maybe I'll write some jazzy blues while in this place. Thats what that genre was for, wasn't it?? (But wow, Jazz sounds really nice! I wonder if Hell has Death Metal Opera Angel's who's voices sound like guitars shredding solo's to an epic chorus. Or maybe its just that puddle o' lava over there... lol.
...Or maybe I'm just a very dark soul or person.
I wish I could afford an lbl session. Wait, I kinda can. But at 23. Supposedly it'd be a waste of time and money until I'm in my 40's...
-fidgets with post-
I hate arguing. Every reality is different, why the balls did I choose this one as my incarnation?
-shakes soul self-
TELL ME YER SECRETS SO HELP US GOD, SOUL
I'LL ENNNDD YOOOUUUU (somehow. Lol)
I refuse to argue my reality's perspective. Blood red aura's denote pain as far as I know.
Does everything naturally have to suffer to die via natural processes? Iunno. But I percieve pain. My sperm do suffer when ejaculating into a vaginal space. Many proud cells burned in a flood of acidic content upon exiting the battlestation upon successful departure (oh god I laughed so hard typing that!)
Every example arguing against honestly contains my point.
That's my reality. Does it make me sick? How I see through the construction to a variant/version of 'why' that quietly inferences what many already questioned of the Biblical God.
Is any Creator moral? How does one experience self and infringe? How does anything not get accepted? (Suicide, point blank example). I've laid out the contradicting logic I've seen. And I see quite a bit sadly -points to 216 Phi Thread I made-
-Points to 3 6 9 12 15 thread referencing Pi as the hidden pattern of Hydrogen Quantum states-
I don't disagree with the Law of One, instead I see its just too incomplete for me personally, offers too much without the underlying context, maybe even a lack of syntax being available, the seeming unknowing behaviors.
I mean, the Orion Empire? Demonic tier entities assaulting us 'metaphysically', no wrong, but can't suicide?
Free Will belongs to Creator, I'm just an atom sized spark of light to even lesser variants of Creator. What does snuffing me out matter? It only does when I do it to myself or an innocent (didn't karmically 'deserve it')
I could write a book on...no, actually I couldn't. Wouldn't.
Just understand, there's lies everywhere. You can't know anything here. You're literally a piece of designed equipment to get abused and hurt to learn. To do kindness in a dark cruel place. To love and enjoy whatever and whenever you can while dealing with pain and suffering all around you.
Yeah, its a nice pleasant place.
But someone suffers, always. By design. No wrong except what Creator deems.
I don't even know! I'm just relaying observations!! I can't argue what I don't know! I think I know but I don't!
If I just knew something for certain...
Life feels like a dream constantly again now. I guess that's no surprise.
Because it literally could be.
And. I'd never know.
Acceptance? There. Done.
I. Am. Ugly. Bag. Of mostly water!!
I. Feel... Pain. Darkness... Terrible.
Everywhere.
Truce?
Will God accept a truce by Human? I desire to not be bombarded with 'directed' catalyst cobstantly day after day.
Bargaining? I'm in Hell, there is no making Souls accept anything, that burden is on the machine operated by the soul.
I wanted to be alone specifically to protest againsr God. If the only miniscule utterance of power over Creator is through being able to screw myself, should tell you what kind of Creator it is to humanity, as a species.
Just some design.
How do we know we aren't repeating everything that's already happened before?
I'm 0-80% sure I've redone this incarnation at least 5-7 times due to suicide.
Yeah, I feel like I'm stuck in hell.
I can't fix that except to finish the hell, up.
No one else can unless they can make everyone else stop hurting and suffering and causing others to hurt and suffer.
I'm tired. That's the Truth. I don't want to bother with life anymore, just wanna finish'er up and do something else where I'm not useless beyond passively giving light to my environment... Assuming I'm even a Wanderer.
The worst part is I can't let go of this. I'm only here now because of it. I was done with Life right when this all showed up, and now its bleak and pointless too potentially by its own logic. I'm only here because of it, I think I have said in the past how I attribute my still living to the Law of One. Talked me out of ssuicide.
Now that its how it is to me, as I said, I literally ONLY continue via Faith. Survival? So tired of it.
Just want to finish it up.
Maybe I'll write some jazzy blues while in this place. Thats what that genre was for, wasn't it?? (But wow, Jazz sounds really nice! I wonder if Hell has Death Metal Opera Angel's who's voices sound like guitars shredding solo's to an epic chorus. Or maybe its just that puddle o' lava over there... lol.
...Or maybe I'm just a very dark soul or person.
I wish I could afford an lbl session. Wait, I kinda can. But at 23. Supposedly it'd be a waste of time and money until I'm in my 40's...
-fidgets with post-
I hate arguing. Every reality is different, why the balls did I choose this one as my incarnation?
-shakes soul self-
TELL ME YER SECRETS SO HELP US GOD, SOUL
I'LL ENNNDD YOOOUUUU (somehow. Lol)