I'm a bigot

[The_Tired_Philosopher]

I don’t understand how I can be feeling this at 22...
...
...If my self identity, which was thin to begin with, takes any more blows I swear I am going to have a mental breakdown.  

Hi fellow bigot, if yer a bigot then I'm a monster.
The quote is probably the most mirrorred thing I could have read today...  My self identity is gone, I had my mental breakdown when I identified reality as hellish enough to be potentially actually be Hell (and it has only gone lower).

Yet.  I understand how you say you feel.  I get it.  I can't stand many things.  I cant stand being a male who's expected to follow unspoken male principles socially but I identify closer to feminine.

I have an issue with people who have issues towards transgender, homosexuality and such but yer views aren't issues.  You feel mad bro?  But you're still nice and treat them human?  I call that kindness.

And as a monster speaking to a bigot.  Stahp dewin dat bro.  You can't be a bigot if you're kindly about the things that you think make you a bigot.

I hate getting drooled on.  But me, personally, I'll take autistic or special what'ed over some trashy asshat on public transportation.  I'll take a kid in a walker over a douchy juggalo.  Its not bigotry, its preference.  You can have feelings. Opinions.  Preferences.

I dislike most gay men, they're (overgeneralizingly on my part) mean.  Just like radical feminists piss me off trying to ruin my life for being born a certain way.

Just like religious zealots make me angry when they're greedy and hypocritical without admitting it.

Just like I loathe children until they're 5 and then I LOVE KIDS. (I think I am a kid at heart...) but somehow can't handle them when they're quiet and absorbed unto the parent.

No way man.  I'm 23, gave up on society and I hate everything now a days very very often yet I don't identify truly as a genuine sincere ass, hypocrite, bigot, or monster.

I identify as pissed off and given up.  I had no more identity the moment I saw OIC as a monstrous brutal entity.  When I identified myself as the same, I gave up on the Universe and everything.  The games of society, the madness of opinion, the horror of apathy.  I'm all alone by choice now, I avoid people and things now as my 'divine path', someone once said you can't bargain with your higher self.

I wish they could see my life right now.  I don't play games with monsters.  There is no divine path, just another Version of the Truth.

You.  You're not someone I feel anger towards.

You can't be a bad person.  Not in the way you think you are.  Same goes for me.

I'm not an infinite multidimensional timeless horror using self aware machine-like hominids to 'reexperience' the ways of Hell by traumatizing them, by design, just to get a clue.

Au revoir, sense and logic.

How could you be a bigot?  You care enough to feel pain at your own bigoted thoughts

I think Ra only takes a name, for our bigoted labeling mad ways of being, to better work with us