Why I am not a vegan

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and not feel almost unbearable sadness IF YOUR HEART IS OPEN?

Most do. It just gets repressed and we push it away. I think there is an addictive element, in that something that tastes good is hard to give up. But also, since the body is intelligent and stores information, I think the body inherently remembers that providing food for ourselves is extremely hard work, and that what we have now is a release from that. So giving that up is difficult, because someone is going to have to put in that effort. As an aspiring vegetarian, I've worked in fields and large gardens and it's not easy. We paint these ideal pictures but who is going to do the work? I know I hate the idea of it.

So I take the route of having my own opinion without expectation from others, and maybe it's as simple as that. Perhaps the attitude in itself will make way for advancements.