Why I am not a vegan

[Diana]

This states that service to others is done by opening the heart.

Yes, this seems pretty basic.

So if someone would respond I would appreciate it. I have a question.

First, I want to state that the only viable (in my opinion) reason for continuing to eat meat has come from Aion and his idea of serious transmutation to help heal, which is reminiscent of "sin-eaters" in indigenous cultures. I don't agree with it, but at least it makes some sense to me, and does not theoretically conflict with the following.

Could anyone please tell me, and I would appreciate honesty, how you could watch animals being tortured (living lives where they can hardly move in darkness, not being able to walk, feel the sun, the rain, the grass under their feet, not being able to care for their young, or have community with others of their kind, being fed unnatural food to fatten them, being shot up with antibiotics and steroids, and so on) and then go to be slaughtered (and hear their cries of terror and see them trying to get away and finally watching as their pitiable lives are ended in inhumane ways) and not feel almost unbearable sadness IF YOUR HEART IS OPEN?

This is where I can't go along with those who say they are okay with it because of the bigger picture. Could someone make me understand how this is possible? And you must make a good argument, and not some new age la-la stuff even if it comes from Ra (as what Ra has said is so often used to twist concepts, because of Ra's concern with free will and not wanting to unduly influence us), in order to have any affect on me—not because I am rigid or unswayable, but because I am intelligent and discerning and I think things out for myself.