Schizophrenia

[Jade]

I think you could be right about your theory, Cainite. Not for all entities, but for some. Ra speaks of this:

The most important concept to grasp about the energy field is that the lower or negative pole [root chakra] will draw the universal energy into itself from the cosmos. Therefrom it will move upward to be met and reacted to by the positive spiraling energy moving downward from within. The measure of an entity’s level of ray activity is the locus wherein the south pole outer energy has been met by the inner spiraling positive energy.

As an entity grows more polarized this locus will move upwards. This phenomenon has been called by your peoples the kundalini. However, it may better be thought of as the meeting place of cosmic and inner, shall we say, vibratory understanding. To attempt to raise the locus of this meeting without realizing the metaphysical principles of magnetism upon which this depends is to invite great imbalance.

This is one of the big problems some people have, and they miss this critical part in the Ra material. Forcing the kundalini invites great imbalance. The chakra energy system is like a pipe - energy moves freely if there are little to no blockages. If there is a blockage and you try to force the energy through, the integrity of the whole system is potentially at risk. It's all well to meditate and try to open the third eye, but to do this without properly opening the chakras in sequence (red>indigo), you can blow the energy center out.

So now you've temporarily damaged your chakra system and you've reverted to a distorted orange ray (fear of possession it seems) feeding into the over-active indigo. My indigo has always been on the underactive side so I'm inexperienced with how hellish such imbalances can be, but they aren't uncommon among members here. Hopefully these things will help: You are of the light. Nothing can possess you against your will. Polarity is a choice, nothing and nobody can make you choose actions of a polarity that isn't of your will. Do some lower chakra work, especially red and orange. Be gentle with your meditations and don't force any energy through your system, work on creating the lower energy points in a state of balance so that the energy will flow upwards on its own.

People put a lot of weight on the third eye, when we're in 3D so the heart chakra is the most important to develop. So don't worry if you have to quiet your third eye a bit to work on the lower chakras, in fact it's probably necessary. If we force the throat/third eye open w/o activating the heart properly, this IS the path to STS. Those first four chakras are where most of the energy work in an incarnation is done.