Are Two Souls Better Than One?

[VanAlioSaldo]

It makes me hope your regards to spiritually graduating are correct, that'd take a huge burden off my mind.  Already having fulfilled the needs to graduate, can I just focus on performing at my own pace now?  haha

Greetings brother, 

Perhaps in my intention to lessen the burden on your Mind with what I'm about to say, it might actually have the opposite effect, but...

If your sole motivation behind graduating is to become harvestable then this actually becomes STS!

It took me many years of contemplating The Confederation's philosophy to ask if this might be the case, and it was only when I questioned Carla on her radio show that I became aware of this aspect of The Harvest.

However, even if we are 6th density natives and don't "make it" to 4th, then presumably the "worst" thing that can happen is that we would have to incarnate for a "major-cycle" on another 3rd density planet. And although this prospect of incarnating for another 75000 years in 3rd density can be frightening, it is still less time than a single average lifespan in 4th density! 

This somewhat selfish concern ( that one will "make it to 4th" ) is most certainly one that occupied a great deal of my thoughts for a long time, and I mean no criticism of you in any way by drawing your attention these facets of this philosophy. It's just a perceptual trap that I would highly recommend avoiding! 

L & L          

Jim

You know, I'd need to think about it. . .When I first discovered about the Harvest, I was initially actually scared of not being harvested simply because the thought of being forced to do even one more incarnation does seriously put me off as...Undesirable in the Extreme.  I guess I never thought about it, I just learned that the best manner to do so was to polarize.  After that I made a lot of connections that led me to think I was of a Service to Others choice across my entire life.  I do seriously wonder if I'm not exactly of a Service to Others polarization in terms of spiritually, but I don't know.  I find my complex of paradoxically being able to look at both the darkness and the brightness and discern it evenly does tell me I may very well have experience under the STS path, but I do not know.  Especially if I'm a Wanderer, I'd have no idea how to apply these feelings.

My life honesty feels like a giant uncertainty at times lol.  But at the same time the only reasons I ever did say no to the STS choice was because of both the 95% rate needed to be harvested and the manner of which I'd be required to manipulate others in order to polarize...And...I just couldn't bring myself to do that.  So I really do find myself in a position of Divine Discontent a bit now.

I never did give the harvest much thought beyond, I want to achieve it to end the incarnations, and if providing love along the way is the manner, that's fine with me.  but ultimately I'd have to say, I only ever picked it up not to Love, but to graduate.  The aspect of spreading love was very much acquired and appreciated by me as I did it, but I can't say the Harvest was the motivation, rather the motivator.  I want to graduate and get away.  I want to give what love I can while I can, but I want to get away more than anything else if we're prioritizing desires.

I find myself feeling somewhat strange about myself now...  Service to Others orientation, walking a Service to Self intent...

Do you think it's possible to be of Service to Self, without manipulating others and still providing love in an unconditional...--Ah.  I just had a thought that really does burden my mind.  Well.  I suppose from forth with the peace of mind some madness must recite its way in as well.  I don't want to be of Service to Self, but I don't want to be much involved in the Yellow Ray, and I guess by extension, Green Ray application of dealing with societal catalyst anymore beyond once in a while...  I don't want to be hurt anymore is the simplest and most honest way of putting it I guess, so now I avoid it.

I guess I better figure it out or get used to 75k more years of...Insanity.  Thank you none the less, the path to Truth may very well be a winding one for me.