04-15-2015, 09:37 AM
I removed all my posts as KPAX before leaving.... and I didn't do that to bully... but to cloak myself from a bully
(Ashim was very OTT abusive (in particular) and I felt very enmeshed and unsafe in the drama of all the conflicting energies of members....)
there's an Egregore here (as Unbound said) that I find can be full on and hurtful and misunderstand 'itself'
I don't think BB is a bully... but at times very 'blunt'...
Shawna handled some really heavy attitudes towards her ideas and was very controlled in her replies I thought...
there are some strong cliques here.. and lots of defensiveness and sensitivities, and lots of insensitivities
but rather than leaving for good I've done some work with my Self and am here now in a different 'form'
I now see I can actively choose polarity via interactions and non interactions here.
(Ashim was very OTT abusive (in particular) and I felt very enmeshed and unsafe in the drama of all the conflicting energies of members....)
there's an Egregore here (as Unbound said) that I find can be full on and hurtful and misunderstand 'itself'
I don't think BB is a bully... but at times very 'blunt'...
Shawna handled some really heavy attitudes towards her ideas and was very controlled in her replies I thought...
there are some strong cliques here.. and lots of defensiveness and sensitivities, and lots of insensitivities
but rather than leaving for good I've done some work with my Self and am here now in a different 'form'
I now see I can actively choose polarity via interactions and non interactions here.
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