Why I am not a vegan

[AnthroHeart]

It is an important distinction to make to give power to those who simply lack will. Once you realize you don't actually want to die, but rather death is a means to an end you take the first step towards discovering why you fear life. Death is almost always a means to an end for those whom long for it. Some simply become apathetic to their own existence.

But I don't understand how I can when life is so beautiful (all the densities are incredible). The Law of One philosophy is amazing.
And I have friends who care about my well being.
I don't understand why I don't have full value in life.