Are Two Souls Better Than One?

[Ashim]

Greetings sisters and brothers,

 
I had a rather profound realisation last night whilst meditating.
 
I have not been happy for many years and it has escaped me as to the reason why. 
 
I am talking about a very deep unhappiness with an accompanying confusion as to its root cause.
 
Is it due having two homesick 6th density Souls? Or is it due to being on anti-psychotic medication that I don't actually need?
 
I have been too scared of descending into unworkable confusion and had lost my faith in myself not to lose it if I stopped the meds.
 
Last night it occurred to me that what I am really afraid of is my own power, something that I got a real glimpse of when I had my "Indigo-Ray-blow-through" in 2001.
 
Another possibility that crossed my Mind is that I have been subconsciously quelling my STO polarity, also out of fear of allowing energy to cause another "Indigo-Ray-blow-through", which might cost me my liberty yet again.
 
Whether this newly found clarity is the ACTUAL reason and that it will last remains to be seen, but everything certainly seems to make more sense to me since last night's realisation.
 
L & L
 
Jim

Hi Jim.
I would not worry about the meds. In fact, they are serving a purpose.
The thoughts like "I should stop", or " I have an addiction" are ok.
You will stop medicating (like many other folks) when the time comes that they (the meds) are no longer of service to you.

It's probably a good idea to disregard feelings of 'guilt' etc at this point.

The medication ( as I see it) is there to shield oneself from premature openings of specific rays/energy centers.

I have spent the past 27 years in a drug influenced reality.
Only recently have I understood the fact that these "modes of thought" can be achieved by use of ritual and other means.

Be thankful and mindful of your pre-incarnational programming.
Drugs have played a most important part in my own personal awakening story.