Curious Brother

[Minyatur]

Ashim

I wouldn't say that I do magical work, but I meditate multie times daily. I do no cleansing or banishing work during my meditations. I have read the words of many who fear greetings from negatively polarized beings. I do not allow that fear to enter my body or mind. Fear is their ally and will give them strength. I instead view it as an opportunity. I'm aware of the STS entities that join me, but instead of fearing them, I choose to Love them. I can abolutely feel them, because my essence is Love, and it is strong, so their presence is easily detectable like a black stain on a white sheet. When they send me greetings and I start to get distracted by feelings of jealousy, anger, self loathing etc. I recognize them, I thank them for greeting me, I make sure to give myself Love, and then give Love to the Creator. I assure the entities that staying with me will lead them down a path of Love to be one with the Creator. My goal is not to make them 'go away', quite the contrary, I wish to lead them down the path to positive polarity. They are, after all, nothing more than my confused brothers, and I Love them, for they show me that which I am not.

I feel that this method is helping to keep my meditations pure, but I am a novice in this world, so any suggestions will be carefully read and humbly considered.

Thank you for your responses Ashim.

Do you feel that STS entities are only there to hinder your spiritual growth or awakening to your higher self?

This is how I've been interacting with them, around 5 years ago I was introduced to Christianity by a friend who I questionned about it because his faith made me wonder. He told me to try to pray which I did, when I prayed I was filled with light and changed anew in many ways but after this experience, for 2 weeks I had many encounters with what I used to call "demons", in that time they had much more power over me to bring forth fear. This hapenned in many different times of my life since then, when I feel like reaching a new step. Now I welcome their arrival with no fear and so they have no power upon me and I simply notice them. For exemple last time I dealt with them myself, I was on a magic mushroom trip with the goal to awaken and synchronise with my higher self. In that state when I would close my eyes, I would see disturbing things that had for only purpose to break my trance. I would see pornographic images, disturbing things like a man opening one of my eyes to pour melted metal into it. pretty much anything and all were neon bright under my closed eye-lids. Weird things in short but that had not much effect on me and I saw as trying to hinder my awakening.

So on my part I see no use to banishing rituals and welcome tests thrown at me. But I've had a bad experience last Saturday where I invited a friend with emotional problems to do a mushroom trip with me and another Wanderer I know. Things were going well until he started feeling really bad, he wanted me to bring him back home which me and the other person thought wasn't the best idea. (we were on drugs, 1 hour into the trip and had 60 mins to drive him back in addition that it doesn't solve his problems). He seemed to want to he alone so we left him alone and went on a long walk. While he was alone he felt opressed, he had visions of a demon face composed of millions of demon faces each making a different sound. He had other vision, felt so bad his body couldn't stop trembling until he called his father at 3 am to come get him (had I known. I would've bring him back..) and so nothing productive came from the night. Well I've tried to tell him to view his experience as a purge but that is up to him. 

So even if in my case I do not feel the need of banishing rituals, I'm starting to feel the need to do them while working with others. I had much hope about the night I spoke of, because my friend is a troubled soul in need of guidance and STS entities rendered the night unfruitful. Well there is much he can learn from it, but I had hoped to help him break his pre-conceptions of the world which put him down.