That's interesting Jade. I in fact did neglect the teachings of 'making your surroundings better' when I was studying astrology, or was it discovering your personal taste. Just never got around to it but that's a Venus thing. (The surroundings). Yes, that feels significant.
It seems to me if I went under hypnosis, I would also connect with the same entities that were involved with the incident. Which is obviously distasteful. The memory has a weird quality to it. Like there are too many lights on. One of the weirdest things was reaching for positives and them not being there, having to reach for them when they are normally quite close. That is in retrospect why I am so attached to the positives now.
I could probably write it off as imagination if I tried. Like, my mother started saying some weird things out of nowhere but perhaps that could have been started by me. Someone text me physically in relation to what the 'enitities' said. Ah, the hospital experiences were very intense and can't be written off.
I feel that if I engage with all this it will be a bottomless pit and who knows where something like those things really comes from? Agreements with said entities? But I have had other unpleasant experiences and perhaps I will have to 'battle' them more than I realised.
It seems to me if I went under hypnosis, I would also connect with the same entities that were involved with the incident. Which is obviously distasteful. The memory has a weird quality to it. Like there are too many lights on. One of the weirdest things was reaching for positives and them not being there, having to reach for them when they are normally quite close. That is in retrospect why I am so attached to the positives now.
I could probably write it off as imagination if I tried. Like, my mother started saying some weird things out of nowhere but perhaps that could have been started by me. Someone text me physically in relation to what the 'enitities' said. Ah, the hospital experiences were very intense and can't be written off.
I feel that if I engage with all this it will be a bottomless pit and who knows where something like those things really comes from? Agreements with said entities? But I have had other unpleasant experiences and perhaps I will have to 'battle' them more than I realised.