Blood sugar stops me from meditating because high bloodsugars make me kind of have difficulty concentrating in a way, since they supress things. It is a big big feature of the very stressed personality that I have. It is probably also responsible for the high degree of seeking to an extent. In fact, accepting and healing that would probably delete a large amount of my life problems.
You see very clearly Stranger. When you say that one of their powers 'keep you confused, and anxious and out of the game'. Although I feel a malevolent presence that I often wonder is planning something far worse for me, 'confused and anxious and out of the game' may be the extent of it.
The have NO power other than what you give them, does make me think. Ah, just do what I know is right and stop trying to 'fix' the problem and hence intellectualise everything.
Also, to an extent I keep coming back to FIGHTING SPIRIT. In that the thing the result of 'confused and anxious and out of the game' is a lack of fighting spirit. There is a clear pattern which serves me well for the near future. One of the negative events that really screwed me up seemed to be getting me to be dependant on the NHS doctors/ system, even though these people have been perfectly nice. Whereas, I was sure the positive spirits seemed to have encouraged fighting spirit- things like get a job. Everything they want you to do is difficult.
It's 6:11 am here in England. Time to go to bed I think!
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You see very clearly Stranger. When you say that one of their powers 'keep you confused, and anxious and out of the game'. Although I feel a malevolent presence that I often wonder is planning something far worse for me, 'confused and anxious and out of the game' may be the extent of it.
The have NO power other than what you give them, does make me think. Ah, just do what I know is right and stop trying to 'fix' the problem and hence intellectualise everything.
Also, to an extent I keep coming back to FIGHTING SPIRIT. In that the thing the result of 'confused and anxious and out of the game' is a lack of fighting spirit. There is a clear pattern which serves me well for the near future. One of the negative events that really screwed me up seemed to be getting me to be dependant on the NHS doctors/ system, even though these people have been perfectly nice. Whereas, I was sure the positive spirits seemed to have encouraged fighting spirit- things like get a job. Everything they want you to do is difficult.
It's 6:11 am here in England. Time to go to bed I think!
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