12-03-2014, 06:25 AM
I have several physiological 'triggers' which I have identified. One is upper back pain almost perfectly in line with my heart chakra. The second is having heartburn which tends to center on my solar plexus. I also have secondary trigger of having a cold on top of my other physical issues.
All of my triggers seem to be an extreme disconnect with feeling my body. For instance, I will go hours and even start having an attack before I notice my back hurts at all. I only notice it hurts when I manually focus on the area, then I realize it has been in pain for awhile. As for my stomach, I often won't be able to tell if I'm hungry or sick to my stomach.
What's weird is I don't feel 'numb' in any other part of my body. Actually, the problem areas aren't numb to other sensations either, just those specific ones.
I have been able to access my emotions more easily regarding all aspects of life... except this. I can't seem to make myself cry when having one despite my trying to tap into the emotion of release. I guess I can try yelling or punching a pillow but I have trouble taking myself seriously when doing something like that.
All of my triggers seem to be an extreme disconnect with feeling my body. For instance, I will go hours and even start having an attack before I notice my back hurts at all. I only notice it hurts when I manually focus on the area, then I realize it has been in pain for awhile. As for my stomach, I often won't be able to tell if I'm hungry or sick to my stomach.
What's weird is I don't feel 'numb' in any other part of my body. Actually, the problem areas aren't numb to other sensations either, just those specific ones.
I have been able to access my emotions more easily regarding all aspects of life... except this. I can't seem to make myself cry when having one despite my trying to tap into the emotion of release. I guess I can try yelling or punching a pillow but I have trouble taking myself seriously when doing something like that.