Post deleted which was what I had up here before doesn't end on a good note!
Mate, haven't relaxed forever. I think at the moment I am incapable. The world is starting to make it's demands now and when I came off sickness benefit I felt far better. Which means there is some energy or entity connected with 'sickness benefit' which just makes things all the more confusing.
Still going through this music/astrology or Love and stuff sort of pattern. There seems to me to be no easy way to DEFINITELY connect with the Creator but I have started to realise that perhaps doing basic 'service' may be helpful. The problem for me is when service appears to be servitude.
I have a piece of paper I scribbled Ra's name on. Which always gives me strong feelings and intuitions. But it seems like some of the feelings I get are polar opposite to those that I get when reading the Ra material. The Ra material archetypes seems to rebuild my mind a little after I got the idea of myself from astrology as someone who essentially doesn't have a mind (Very little air). But this is all very confusing.
Mate, haven't relaxed forever. I think at the moment I am incapable. The world is starting to make it's demands now and when I came off sickness benefit I felt far better. Which means there is some energy or entity connected with 'sickness benefit' which just makes things all the more confusing.
Still going through this music/astrology or Love and stuff sort of pattern. There seems to me to be no easy way to DEFINITELY connect with the Creator but I have started to realise that perhaps doing basic 'service' may be helpful. The problem for me is when service appears to be servitude.
I have a piece of paper I scribbled Ra's name on. Which always gives me strong feelings and intuitions. But it seems like some of the feelings I get are polar opposite to those that I get when reading the Ra material. The Ra material archetypes seems to rebuild my mind a little after I got the idea of myself from astrology as someone who essentially doesn't have a mind (Very little air). But this is all very confusing.