are you a 1 Time Wanderer, or have you been here before?

[zvonimir]

i am reading again A Wanderer's handbook and always stop at this part as something i cant resolve within myself

"Due to the extreme variance between the vibratory distortions of third density and those of the more dense densities, if you will, wanderers have as a general rule some form of handicap, difficulty or feeling of alienation which is severe. The most common of these difficulties are alienation, the rea?ion against the planetary vibration by personality disorders, as you would call them, and body complex ailments indicat- ing difficulty in adjustment to the planetary vibrations."

this adjustments can be remedied but sometimes a get the feeling that this distortions should not be obstacles in front of the purposes for which we are here (assuming i am"W") all things described about wanderers in book resonates with me .The great hunger to know to do more and in better way is my fuel on which i drive the body ,but people around me seem to be in some extremly hard sleep, and not seeing progress in them destroys me from inside ,i think this is the cause of all my body distortions not able to distance myself from their sorrow and troubles , which i realise on intuitive level that it is their will not help them selves and again it grieves me even more ,i never complain about my physical condition to my family ,they are more concerned then i am but whenn i see them catching some cold which passes in few days and how hard is for them to be incapacitated for that time than i am gratefull that i bear this illnesses and not them , but the time has come when i desire to rid myself of those obstructions.