The Law of Responsibility

[Billy]

If you have chosen the STO path, serving others is not the end, but a means to the end. Your end goal is to polarize, gain spiritual brightness. Serving others is the most efficient way to achieve that goal. Let me drop into an example. You walk down the street and a homeless person asks for change. You give him some. This is an act of kindness and is objectively an act of service to other. But it will not actually polarize you unless that action moved your heart. There is no score card for polarization. 10,000 acts of kindness will do nothing if each was a trivial action. But even one single act of kindness that truly opened your heart could polarize you 10,000+. So while I, with my full time job, handing out dollar bills to the homeless am doing some small good here, it is nothing compared to the compassion and heart-awakening that would take place if another homeless person, confronted by the other guy begging, gave up the only $2 in her pocket to help him, out of love for otherself.

This is what I've been struggling with as of late. The example you gave is a good one as I often encounter homeless people when I'm in the city and occasionally buy some food or give them change. But in doing so I don't really feel a movement in my heart after doing so, and when I ask myself why I did it, I usually just say "it's the right thing to do, what are you gonna do with the money". While I may not be polarising, and it does feel a little forced at times, isn't it still a good thing to do? I've noticed that when I'm in a good place, serving others flows much more 'naturally'. I see serving yourself as simply loving and accepting yourself for who you are. Thank you for acting as a mirror ricdaw, I appreciate it .