It sounds like you're thinking too much on the past. What's done is done, and since you found TLOO rather than staying at your job, I'm gonna say that what was done was worth it. So time to think ahead! You might benefit from giving a thought or two to Anthony Robbins quote, "If you do what you've always done, you'll get what you've always gotten."
You could consider looking into the field of the study of the Law of Attraction, if that would interest you.
Peace, Love, Light and Namasté
You could consider looking into the field of the study of the Law of Attraction, if that would interest you.
Peace, Love, Light and Namasté