Penetrating the forgetting process

[Steppingfeet]

there is silence. absolute stillness. absolute harmony. there is everything. we are infinite. we also do not exist.

that is as much as i can put it yet.

That pretty much matches my intellectual understanding and, to a limited extent, my experiential understanding. (Still working on the experience part.)

About the "we also do not exist" statement, i would add what I feel to be an important qualifier, that being that we do not exist as we currently conceive of our existence.

I mean, there is identity. There is being, existing. There is existence. Whether you call it we or I may be a matter of semantics, though "I am", or simply "I", would probably be the more accurate.

At any rate, one cannot deny existence, but one can point to the fictional nature of existence as we conceive it.

What does not exist - in the ultimate sense of the word - are these separate identities, these separate "I's". Just twists of perception, they are, we are.

You might really enjoy Ramana Maharshi. Speaking from the standpoint of the absolute, he more than any other has helped me to see the impermanence and... non-existing nature of the individual self.