Ra on marijuana

[xise]

FYI, I am writing this sober. (though there's nothing wrong with posting high as your intuition and creativity can be at amazing levels as I will describe below). So I've revisited weekly marijuana smoking after a basically 4 year lull where I was smoking maybe 6 times a year. Weed in the past helped me think in new ways, but also ended up not being enjoyable after almost 2 straight years of almost daily smoking. In the past, I also probably used it to probably avoid catalyst as this was pre-awakening.



Weed the past two weeks is a significantly different experience than I've ever done before. I don't know if its the ray related work I've done, if its the weed I'm smoking, or if its because of the break in usage, but I've noticed creativity increases far surpassing what I used to get. Perhaps its a combination of all three. Now when I smoke, I go on a philosophy/story telling writing spree. My creativity goes through the roof. I amaze myself even while sober with the things I've thought up lately.


Also, what I use to call paranoia in the past now seems like inserted thoughts or voices. I'm fairly sure of myself these days and confident (red/orange/yellow), so I usually have no trouble with those naysaying voices anymore. But there are is also another voice, a deeper voice, that has a particular characteristic to me, that sounds like a better version of myself. I get intuitive thoughts from that voice out of no where. It's amazing. Before I wasn't completely sure, but now I am convinced that weed can be used positively in the spiritual journey for certain individuals. And I totally get why so many artists smoke so often. It all makes sense.


Time for me to go find some paint.