Why should I care about becoming everything again?

[AnthroHeart]

Even if you don't expand, your Higher Self is expanding. You just feel bad when you don't follow its expansion. Nobody likes to feel bad. And people that claim to do, don't understand what feeling bad is.

I feel like at times my higher self wants me to expand out of control. To where I cannot have a grasp on my thoughts because they are racing, and my mind feels like it is "slipping". I don't like feeling bad, and I feel bad a lot. It's hard to know what my higher self wants. Even harder to follow that plan, and live as my higher self desires. I try to live as I desire, but it doesn't bring me happiness.

I do understand what you mean by our soul being outside of time though. That indeed makes the lifetime of the universe inconsequential.