06-03-2014, 07:25 PM
(06-02-2014, 10:25 AM)michael430 Wrote: Your experience is similar to mine in some ways.
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I do pray to Ra. Also Archangel Michael and Seth.
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Welcome and thanks for sharing your story.
Hello Michael430,
First of all Thank You for your reply and Welcoming me here.
I'm Glad to meet Someone who had similar 'road' as I had - from belief, through knowledge, to Wisdom ("knowing within self"). I still am struggling with my "rational mind" which is "guarding" me from falling into another "belief". Although "guarding" is not best word to describe it. I think that 'rational mind' is somewhat of a "border" within Self that in case of One who fell for it once without holding back, now it's extremely hard to balance it (especially to made it equal with a Spirit) - mainly due to living in "material causality" which only enforcing this sphere of "Self".
(06-02-2014, 10:25 AM)michael430 Wrote: My own opinion is that there is something very special and important about that FIRST view of the divine given to you as a child.
I agree. When You are introduced to a non-material values while Your "mind" (border-maker, border-guardian, border-worshiper) is still asleep, still building it's own capability of "understanding and judge" - You have a chance to learn how to accept and Love that which is not available to You in direct experience.
When Your "Mind" finally awakes, Your capability of acceptance & Love that which is non-material begins to be a function of the power of Your mind. Stronger the mind, lesser the chances to open Self for that what eludes its logic.
It may be hard to understand, but I still have moments when my "mind" is screaming to me to "get back" to his realm of "obviousness". It offers me "simplicity" and "order" but all that comes with "emptiness" of its own boundaries of understanding and "formula of acceptance" which at its core has "fact" as "acceptance indicator". So called "truth-measures" made by mind may be very convincing in this reality as both (mind and reality) are very compatible.
But since I felt/feel that I consist of more than my mind and this body I'm experiencin each day in my existence here, I cannot resign from part of Self that is beyond grasp of my mind. In some sense it would be like abandoning part of Self for different part of Self - it would be a disintegration of Self which I cannot accept.